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How to respond to the Hermit when you feel aren’t getting what you want or need from the card

black and gray lantern

As we close out the month of March, I wanted to share some thoughts about working with the Hermit, showing up to this invited space even when we feel that we aren’t immediately getting what we want or need from this card. What I know today about this card is this: this month has been extremely profound in helping me work with this card, and I hope that my words share and spread the completeness of this card to you.

In this blog post, my goal is to show and share some ways to respond when the Hermit comes up for you in reading, or if you are working with it in depth. I find this to be a needed discussion in all of the tarot. We pull the cards, and we want the instant epiphany, the lighting bolt of clarity. Often, our work with these cards is much more obscure, two steps forward and one step back. I have written a detailed bio of this card, which you can access by clicking here, or by heading to the The Wild Unknown Card Meanings tab in my menu to see all the written insights I have uploaded thus far.

In working with the Hermit, it is important to ask yourself what you really want to gain. What you do wish the Hermit to do for you? What is needed when this card comes forward? By gaining clarity on what is lacking in the intimate workings with this card, you can better gauge where you need to sit with the energies. As I have mentioned before, the Hermit is not merely about retreating into stillness. This card, ruled by Virgo, is a card of internal working and tending. If you have felt unwilling to confront the darkness, that may be the first place to sit with this card. If you are still stuck, the Hermit is a card of collaboration. How can you initiate collaboration with this card?

The Hermit from the Hush Tarot deck shows an owl sitting on a branch, surrounded by external man-made things, architecture and barbed wire and nails. The Owl is not disturbed. He is of the whole earth. The internal mechanism within is revealed, speaking to the tending and adapting of nature and artifact in order to repair and rebuild as needed.

One of the best ways to respond to the Hermit when you feel like you aren’t getting what you want or need is to work with the seasons. The seasons are cycles that embody natural law. The seasons turn and change subtly even from wet to dry, from cold to warm. The seasons in relation to the Hermit can help us drop in to internal manifestations. We are different between winter summer. Our bodies respond differently to these changing currents. What energies are you feeling within the season of your landscape? What kind of work, action, or choice does the season inspire in you?

If you do not want to work with the seasons, work with the Moon. The Moon is another cycle of natural order, and can have a profound effect on the shuffling of our own energies. These larger cycles and turns of our world are great ways to embody the Hermit, and really sit with the invitations, because that is what the Hermit is exactly about, collaborating with the energies that are here and present in order to gain wisdom and emerge into the interconnective fabric with a willingness to create change.

Moon cycles and season cycles speak to moving, breathing life of the natural world. Each of us are one piece of this living thing, but the Hermit shows us that the importance we carry in being a steward for these cycles is beyond compare. When we realize how interconnected we are in the totality of ourselves, we can see how we can be the bringers of wisdom and light.

Apart from working with seasons and Moon cycles, I highly encourage you when working with the Hermit to write your narrative down. Write down or document what is needing expression within. Journal. Create art. Write a song or poem. Write your name again and again. This form of working with the Hermit is vital because one key element with Virgo is a sense of organization and detail. For me, I cannot overly organize my life or I start to feel restricted. However, when I organize my thoughts and feelings in to organized language and expression, I feel I am embodying the most beautiful part of the Hermit.

Write or document your thoughts and feelings, and return to them at a later time. See how much even in a week can change or develop your understanding of any given situation. This is Hermit work, to commit to the self as to commit to any other relationship or interconnective thread. See where your feast and famine sit within you, and feed the hungry wolves that lie in wait. It isn’t about retreating. It is about connecting your whole self to larger forces to be influential to the cycles of the community, and the world.

Through writing and documenting your thoughts and feelings, you are connecting with yourself in fullness. You may not get every little word out or thought down, but you create the space to engage and understand. You create the space to acknowledge and adapt. This is some of the hardest work to be done on the self. Many avoid this confrontation, and it is obvious.

One final thing that I want to say on the Hermit, and responding to this cards appearance is to not rush. There is no rush to understanding, to gaining wisdom, to being a bringer of light. There is no destination to wokeness, to change, to enlightenment. We are always changing and turning, just as the world does the same. That means we are always teachers and students to the darkness and the light. We are ever evolving. Do not rush this work. Root into your sacred center and breathe. That is all you can ever do, for yourself, or for the world.

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How to Work with the 6 of Pentacles


As each day begins to bring us closer to March, distancing us from the shortest month of the year, it is therapeutic, dare I write it…….even cathartic to write my workings with this card onto the public page of my platform. In working with the 6 of Pentacles, and as I mentioned in the podcast episode (click here to listen), it is important to see and work with the 6 of Pentacles beyond an act of charity. I don’t like to work with the 6 of Pentacles based on a capitalistic narrative that puts money in the form of hierarchy between people. Instead, I am going to discuss how the themes within this card open the space for sharing for the bigger picture, and what that means. I am also going to discuss how abundance and generosity make magick and reality a fluid cycle, ending within the metaphor of pollination- and how it relates to this card.

When talking about sharing for the picture, I cannot help but reflect back on 2020, and the beginning of this year. I know…I know, we have discussed about the last year to the point that it has become a trope of itself. However, when I look back on the last year, I see that our lives are communally based. We may not be the most social of people (I am definitely not overly social) but the good of the individual enhances and elevates the good of the community. The good of the community leads to the good of a society.

This is not merely related to health, although 2020 showed how health is not a individual issue. When discussing the theme of sharing for the bigger picture, it is about all of that, and more. Sharing for the bigger picture means that we do not seek to shut ourselves off or away from the world. Instead, we open ourselves to the goods that abound with gratitude and companionship. We share with the community, with our spirit guides and ancestors, with our friends and family, so that the layered energies become enriched with stability and support.

From the Herbcrafter’s Tarot, the 6 of Pentacles is shown as Pine. Pine offers it’s medicine, resources, and support all year. This consistence supports all living things.

The Herbcrafter’s Tarot deck shows the layered meaning of this card. When we share for the bigger picture, it is not merely monetary or based on someone’s altruistic acts. This card speaks to sharing in ritual and magick and community because that is how the bigger energies change for the better. When working with this card, we are being asked to commit to sharing in the ways that we can, so that the community, society, and the very Earth experiences more stability, more support.

Building on this narrative, when we look to generosity and abundance, we are being asked with this card to be generous with all the layers and faculties of ourselves. We can use our hearts, our minds, our bodies, and our spirits to direct the bigger picture towards more support and stability. By offering out and being generous with ourselves, we charge the Universe to send back to us what we have put out. We merge into the large and small cycles of what is, was, and will be with more direction being paid towards wider description of abundance.

From the Hush Tarot deck, the Meadowlark is the only bird that sings while flying, indicating joy and bounty. Meadowlarks are a symbol of abundance and good harvest.

When we look to generosity, prosperity, and sharing it is important to find the space to really sit with what abundance means to us. Abundance and prosperity are not terms and themes that exist in a vacuum. They are around us all the time. It requires that we take notice, be part of the collaboration for prosperity’s own sake. Being part of the abundance for the bigger picture means that we actively choose the ways we are fulfilled continuously, constantly.

When abundance and prosperity move and guide us, we are freer to offer out our internal truth more. We are freer to find the small and subtle layers that bring abundance into our days. With all of this glorious energy, it can be easy to see this card as all love and light, sunshine and rainbows shit. Not true.

This card is a positive card, and indicates quite beautiful themes, but this card also points to work that needs to be done. It points to what is out of alignment with prosperity. It can also indicate our attention to money, the privilege that many (me included) hold and how that privilege has created deep, systemic imbalances. This card indicates and guides us toward move and bring abundance into spirit, but it also shines a light on where the balances of power are tilted.

When we work with this card, it is important to look at how we build and collaborate from a space of prosperity. When we take abundance and prosperity into our spirit, and then give it out to the world along with our truths, it is vital to see and reflect on how these systems, resources, and guiding forces can be called on and cultivated in times of hardship. In short, this card encourages us to not see and work with abundance as some fleeting, charitable influence. Rather, it is a form of stabilizing and ensuring that all things have a seat at the table of abundance.

From the Wild Unknown, we see the 6 of Pentacles as a form of growth, symbolized by the seed. Through pollination, more and more living things thrive.

Finally, we can work with the 6 of Pentacles by calling to mind the role of pollination, both metaphorically and physically. If you really want to be share in the totality of abundance for the bigger picture, go thank a pollinator! metaphorically, we can use pollination as an analogy for the 6 of Pentacles. Through the act of pollination the plant can grow and thrive, and others plants can grow and thrive. Pollination contributes to the whole ecosystem, with each living thing benefitting and offering their own abundance to keep all things in equilibrium. For us, on a spiritual scale, we can see pollination as a way to encourage our spiritual thriving, as well as the thriving spiritual ecosystem for all things.

I would love to hear how the 6 of Pentacles has benefitted you. I really love this card, and see the prosperous blooming in all things. In you, in me, in all things, we bloom together or we wither together. Thank you so much for reading.

Many blessings and much love,

Ashlie

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Imbolc and Hera: Teachings on the Link between Death and Joy

Blessed Imbolc

Today is Imbolc (also known as Candlemas)- a Celtic day of celebration and a calendar marking the halfway point between the Winter Solstice and the coming Spring Equinox. This time is ripe with the seeds of joy and the grief of what has been lost, left behind with Winter. As we look to, and embrace the fecund light, we still feel the cold hands of loss within our bones.

It is typical on this day to call in Brigid- the Celtic goddess of creativity, the Sun, sacred fire, poetry, and the hearth. However, sitting down with the energies of the Imbolc, I feel called to call in Hera.

In this post, I will discuss some of the ways you can embrace the beauty of Imbolc and some of the teachings with Hera, and why I chose to call her in.

The Teachings of Imbolc:

There are many different ways to celebrate Imbolc; in fact, there is no one true way to celebrate this day. However, there are some key themes that come up in plethora of literature. I have included a few ways to embrace this day, but this list is by no means exhaustive.

  • Light a candle: A candle symbolizes the growing light, illuminating that which has been hidden in the depth and darkness of winter.
  • Honor the Goddess Brigid: making the Brigid’s cross, or placing a Bridey doll on your altar. Brigid is the triple Goddess, but Imbolc honors the Maiden state. She is also the goddess of wells and waterways, so cleansing ritual baths or time with both water and earth honors the state of coming fertility
  • Celebration through food: Food, seeds, and drink celebrate the gift of life. Make or celebrate the joys here and now through feasting.
  • Divination: As the light grows, so does clarity. The liminal space of both light and dark allows a connection between the spectrum. Use any divination tool you may wish to honor and embrace the liminal and the magickal.
  • Milk offering: Milk + milk substitutes + water can be used as a libation to signify the gift and gratitude of nourishment.

Click on these links to see and read from the resources that I used for this list.

https://www.goddessandgreenman.co.uk/imbolc-candlemas/

What does this have to do with Hera?

So, what does this Celtic day have to do with Hera, the Greek Goddess? Why am I choosing to specifically call in Hera on this day? There is two reasons. One, Hera has been coming up a lot for me in my own personal space. I do not take her invitation lightly, and I am happy to oblige this growing between us. Two, because one of the energies that I am really feeling into on this Imbolc is the cornerstone between Death and Life.

Imbolc is a beautiful day, and there is so much to be grateful for. The symbolism of coming life, of earth warming and loosening, and of nourishment no longer as a promise is gorgeous. Who wouldn’t want nourishment as a stable force in their lives? However, Imbolc also reminds us of what has died in the cold hands of Winter. It is a reminder that as much as we relish and embrace joy, so to must we contend with the stabs of pain.

Hera is a beautiful embodiment of this, and her energy needs to be reclaimed. She is not simply a jealous wife. She is not merely left to endure the indiscretions of her husband. These elements are there, but she is so much more. She is fully in joy, walking with women into sacred merging continuously. She is also an embodiment of how pain moves us. In her pain, she releases her wrath. Her wrath comes from her beautiful sense of dignity, and her promise to be heard when she has been wronged.

She also symbolizes the ability to endure. She was built to endure, and anything strong that confronts her is matched and overcome. She is the Queen of the Heavens. She is the goddess of overcoming. Overcoming is not glamorous, and her history (written for so long by men) needs to be rewritten. Her endurance also brings forward the space of asking us how we show up as partners, as participants in this world? How do we co-create and collaborate for the bigger picture?

It is for this reason that I am working with Hera and this blessed day. Her endurance and steadfast strength are reminders that we cannot control the cycles of life and death, pain and joy, but we can embrace dignity and mergings and the ability to see as sacred. The fires of Imbolc- help light the way. As above, so below. So mote it be!

Click here for a great resource on Hera

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January Monthly Cards

The monthly cards for January are here: The Lovers and the Lady Alfreda (Justice will Prevail). We dive deep into these cards on the Tea and Tombstones podcast, exploring the themes of sacred reciprocity, underworld initiation, magickal and natural law, karmic residue, and the use of wise counsel to guide and instruct our choices and values. 

We also ask and explore what it means to look at these themes when they are not in vacuum. For instance, how would justice come forward for you right now? How different would it look as opposed to coming forward a year ago? Five years ago?

The Lovers is all about the return, sacred reclaiming and sacred deepening of the wisdom we have gained from the Hierophant. This deepening, awakening, reclaiming allows us to move towards the Chariot, engaging in that which is our calling, that which is ours to behold.

Lady Alfreda is the goddess of wise counsel based on karmic initiations. Everything impacts everything, and when we allow the wisdom of all that has come before to be a teacher, we can join the archetypal history of remembering. You can find the podcast on Itunes, Stitcher, Spotify, Google Podcasts, and more.

Let me know how these cards come forward for you. XOXO

Ashlie

 

 

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Transcript of Glamour Magick Podcast Episode

Recently, someone reached out to me on Facebook about being able to get access to glamour magick podcast episode. I decided that I would start trying to transcribe my podcasts so that if you are have a hard time hearing, or speak a different language, or just want to read my podcast instead of listening to it, now you can. I used a company that transcribes podcast episodes. It wasn’t the best service, and because it was transcribing me talking, there are many grammatical errors. Please ignore those, while I work on getting my episodes transcribed and available to all who want or need it available in this form!


And I can feel it just being a lot drier. So I apologize. I know it is not the best to hear me taking drinks from my tea cup, but I don’t want to edit out every single time I take a sip and my throat is a little hoarse and I’m just trying to make sure that I am getting fluids in. So let’s talk glamour magic. What is glamour magic? So I’m first going to give a, just a brief definition of what my take on glamour magic is. And then I’m going to talk about how, because my mission statement and the compass that leads me through all of my creations with Tea and Tombstones is meeting both the haunted and the hallowed of life through tarot and spiritual counsel. I that’s how I introduced the podcast. It’s on the website. I’m going to talk a little bit about how glamour magic can fit into both the haunted and the hallowed and some things to maybe think about, or just some things to take note of, if you are seasoned in glamour magic, and you just want to maybe take these into consideration.


That’s great. If you’re brand new to glamour magic and what it is, then you can use these as maybe a little bit of a starting point or just a little bit of a barometer to see if it is something that is working for you. My take on glamour magic is that it is a draping and a layering to enhance your internal power or the sensations that you feel internally to be expanded and embodied and embraced externally. This does not mean that glamour magic is only makeup, fashion sex, although that is often a great way to use glamour magic because it is such an easy starting point, but that is how I see glamour magic. You may see some things a bit differently, and I do have some articles that I want to reference. One of them in particular, I want to reference because it has a spell that I actually want to try for myself.


I think the article has some good points. And then there’s another article that I will have all of these listed in the show notes so that you can see these articles. You can read them. And as always, you can form your own opinion around glamour magic and see how it works for you. So that is my definition of glamour magic, that it is a layering of resources, energies, and objects to take my internal energies, my internal sensations, my internal power, my internal expression, and bring it forth out into the physical world. Even if it’s not something that can be perhaps physically seen, even if it’s just the way I’m carrying myself, I’m carrying myself more confidently that day. And I’m feeling more confident because I have a bra on that makes, you know, my tits look great. I think then that is a form of confidence boost for me.


And I’m going to carry that confidence and that power maybe a little bit more. So that is one way, and that’s also a very surface level form of glamour magic. So I just want to point that out. But so that is how I see glamour magic. As I said, it’s just a way to bring in, receive in and layer with resources and with physical objects or with energies or with things that make us feel a certain way. And that layering and that complexity helps bring the, it helps kind of be like a crucible a little bit that it’s like bringing and whittling down these things to elevate internal energy, internal feelings, internal sensations. And this is why glamour magic, as I said, is often linked to things like makeup, fashion, clothes, shoes, because it is just such a visible way to, and it’s such a convenient way to step into glamour magic.


And that is one form of magic that has not dwindled for me. So my spiritual and magical self has been coming under a little bit of challenge or obstacle or distance with me part of, and it’s both personally and collectively that I feel this way. I feel this way. One because the state of the world right now is very, at times scary to me, it’s it makes me feel fear and afraid because the things that I care about, the things that elevate my spiritual and magical practice, but then that elevates my rituals is deeply tied to earth. And I see the earth as a living breathing body because she is when I see the state of things as they are today, it’s hard not to have my collective magical practice feel that fear feel that pain in some way, because it’s just so apparent. I mean, it’s been apparent for a long time, but I think, I think right now things just are so compounded and 2020 has been just such a shit year anyway, that it just feels like the uphill battle is never ending.


It’s just hard. I mean, it’s hard for me. I don’t know how else to describe it. It just kind of makes me feel weary. It makes me feel drained. It makes me feel afraid. And then personally, I’ve also kind of been feeling that because we, as I mentioned, in Instagram post, we were renovating the condo. So we had to be out of the condo for three weeks, which basically meant that we had to have everything packed up, moved out and away so that they could completely flip our condo. So that meant that everything that I use in my magical practice and my spell crafting in my rituals all had to be packed away. The only thing I did not pack basically was my decks, my tarot, and my Oracle decks, because I could not bring myself to put those precious tools in a box. So I just put them in my suitcase and just brought them with me when we stayed with my parents.


And now that we’re back in, grizzly and I are actively looking for a place to move to. So I’m not unpacking all of the boxes that I packed up when we left, because I don’t want to have to just repack them if we find a home. So a lot of my magical tools, my spell crafting tools, my ritual tools are all in boxes. I do have some, uh, big petrified wood pieces that I use. I have been using that as a way to kind of help connect me ancestrally to this land, to this place. And I have my decks and that’s pretty much it and rituals and glamour magic, a great way to our glamour magic is when you are in the space of spell- crafting tarot reading, uh, astrology birth charts or divination of any kind you can bring in glamour magic by using or utilizing different resources and tools to help elevate the space.


So using incense and crystals, and if you want to use some personal, a piece of clothing that is, you know, or some piece of jewelry that is important for that ritual, if you want to use candles, if you want to use music, if you want the spell to be done outside or inside, all of these things are, I would think at least a form of glamour magic, because what it’s doing is it’s changing the landscape of your physical environment, which is going to change your spell crafting. It’s going to change your ritual. It’s going to change your magical space, your magical self within that environment, because you’re, co-creating within that environment. That’s what witches do. And so I recognized that I used glamour magic a lot, and I didn’t really realize I was using glamour magic in my rituals and in my spell crafting until all of those objects were packed away.


It’s been on my mind a lot recently. And also if you are brand new to glamour magic, utilizing some of those resources in meditation or in spell crafting or in ritual are a great way to kind of see how the magic works for you and how you can make it your own, make it unique and make it something that’s really serving you. Because the key point with glamour magic is that it’s all about intention. It’s all about intentionally receiving or actively bringing in these resources, these energies, these colors, these tools, these objects, because they help elevate your space and they help elevate your energy some way it’s bringing in actively and intentionally bringing in or receiving in anything that elevates the landscape that changes the landscape in some way. And the landscape again, does not have to be just external and it doesn’t have to be just aesthetics.


We’re going to talk about that in a second, but I just want to make sure that this is coming across clearly and that this is coming across in a way that it can be used or utilized in a way that works for you. So, as I said, my, all of my resources, all of my books, all of my incense and my lovely Sage or Cedar wands, I’ve been using Cedar and pine alive, because one, I fully recognize that Sage is, well being from Colorado there is some native Sage here, but the act of using Sage as a form of cleansing clearing or elevating the space is not from my culture. So I’ve been wanting to look to more, um, other plants that I want to bring in. And Cedar Juniper, a lot of those, uh, kind of heavy tree scents are really there, they’ve been really lovely for me and just elevating my own national space.


I don’t have them right now, as I said, so I need to get some more, but because I don’t have those, I’ve been turning into my daily morning ritual a lot. I don’t do this every morning because some days I just cannot be bothered, but if I’m being honest, but most days I try to get ready for the day. Even if I don’t go anywhere, I try to get ready for the day and getting ready for me is the full shebang. It is the full thing. Like I am going to take a nice shower. I’m going to put on a full face of makeup. And I am going to pick out an outfit that I feel is awesome and banging and everything I want it to be that day and I’m going to do my hair, and I am going to go through all of that, because that is part of my clever magic practice.


That is part of my morning ritual on the days that I do it. And so it’s really about, again, me changing the landscape of my own body in a way that makes me feel grounded. It makes me feel centered. It makes me feel rooted into myself because in that hour and a half between shower to when I’m fully done that hour and a half is pure sacred, it is absolutely sacred. And that is the reason why I do it as often as I can. And I actively take time and make time to put it into my day. I could have an extra hour of sleep or I could have an extra hour of reading my book or working on this thing for my business, but I choose to get in the shower. I choose to put on a podcast when I get out and I have that warm cup of coffee, and then I just start getting ready for the day.


And I am just fully in the present moment. I’m not thinking about really anything beyond, you know, what colors do I want to use? What outfits do I want to wear? Like, I am just fully in that space of creative play. It’s so valuable to me it’s so valuable because it has no consequence on anything. And that’s kind of the point is that it is simply for me, but yet in doing that for myself, I feel more confident. I just feel better. I feel a little bit more energized to complete the tasks that I need to get done for that day. And also just really, again, it really calms me. It’s like a form of therapy. It is a way for me to feel more grounded into myself, more rooted and self planted into my present moment, into my day, because it is something that I love to do.


And there’s no other reason. There’s no other purpose for it. As I said, I define glamour magic as actively receiving or intentionally bringing in anything to change the internal or external landscape and then to expand on that or to layer that, glamour magic, I think can be used to claim yourself sovereign. Or as I like to say, claim yourself, unicorn. What I mean when I say this is that like unicorns, who are these magical, beautiful transcendent, unearthly creatures that are at the same time, so connected to the earth. So to wherever magic can help us get into this space of complete and wild reclamation. Through glamour magic we can reclaim ourselves step into our truth and claim the way that we are both seen and see the world as it is. And as we want it to be, and also like unicorns, we can also use glamour magic as a way to at times invoke a reaction.


So for instance, one of the ways that I use glamour magic long time ago, I did not recognize that I guess using it this way was it was either 2005 or 2006. It was right as I was leaving high school, I cut my hair very, very short and I used to have hair that was average length. And I did it as a way to claim it myself wild against the standard narratives of beauty, that you can only be a beautiful woman with long hair. And obviously that’s not true. I was so tired of seeing this portrayal of beauty, seeing this betrayal of beauty and transcendence in a way that was very, very limiting. And so I chose to cut off all my hair because that was a way that I could claim myself and claim myself sovereign claim myself unicorn and allow that wild reclamation be how I wanted to be seen in this world.


So sometimes glamour magic can be used to invoke a reaction. This is where some times you see sex magic and glamour magic intersect because using sex magic or using glamour magic in relation to sex magic can be to invoke a reaction, which obviously is to invoke a reaction in terms of libido So glamour magic can be used to invoke a reaction, good or bad. It can be used as a form of expression, a way to express a belief system. Like I said, I don’t believe that only long-haired girls were pretty. Glamour magic can also be used to conceal something. In fact, concealing something is where we see the foundation and the roots and the tradition of glamour magic, often. In this article that I will have linked in the show notes. It is from a hellogiggles.com fashion witch, Gabriela


Herstik tells us how to incorporate magic into our beauty routines. And she is talking about how she uses glamour magic daily with intention. She claimed her power and stepped into her beautiful and sovereign self in space. But she mentioned that glamour magic in regards to folklore is when a fairy baby would be switched with a human baby. They would cast a glamour upon the fairy babyso that it would look like the human baby and the parents would not know, and this was called a changeling. There’s a really great movie called the change language, Angelina Jolie. That’s really fascinating. And it kind of goes into this narrative of how sometimes visuals are a way of distraction are a way of concealing, something that is harmful or wrong. It’s a great movie. I suggest you watch it. But, beyond folklore and into the space you’re in now.


And at least the way I see glamour magic in terms of concealing something, is that it can be used to conceal anything someone doesn’t want shared, visible, or known. Sometimes this could just be an energy. Sometimes this could be an experience, a feeling. This could also be something physical. And in this way, glamour magic can also be used in relation with other spells or other rituals, such as boundary spells or protective spells. And this is a great way to use glamour magic as a way to heighten other spells that you’re doing. So if you are wondering if glamour magic is right for you, if you’ve never really used glamour magic before, I recommend trying it, well and trying it in any way that you see fit. But if you are working with any sort of protective or boundary spell, stepping into that kind of ritual, I really recommend using glamour spells as a way to enhance that other spell that protection or boundary spell, because grammar magic can be used to conceal that and it can layer the complexities and the nuance of any other form of your magical practice. Tattoos are another form of glamour magic, because we are the living altars of our spiritual path.


We are those living alters. Our body is the messenger for our spiritual self into and out of all things. So it’s, it’s lovely and tattoos are a great way to adorn that living altar, which is our bodies. If you choose a lot of times, people want to get tattoos to conceal some ex-boyfriend’s name or some ex-girlfriend’s name, or they want to use tattoos to conceal, um, maybe like scars, to transform the landscape from what was this place of hardship and challenge and turn it into something beautiful, and so transcendent and it’s lovely. Sometimes glamour magic can simply be used to reveal something powerful to consciously manipulate and reveal the internal energy externally. I want to go in now to how glamour magic meets the haunted and the hallowed, the haunted and the hallowed, is the internal or external spectrum of all things. Sometimes that hallowed ground often has those tombstone moments or those haunted moments.


And that could be what makes the ground hallowed. That could be what makes this situation sacred. So the haunted and the hallowed is really just the energetic spectrum of all things, in my opinion. So glamour magic can be, as with everything, on that spectrum. When it’s standing on hallowed ground, when it’s in that place of pure sacred awakening, I should say pure sacred awakening or pure sacred expression. Glamour magic is literally draping yourself in these multitude of layers that make you everything that you are. Glamour magic is literally layering yourself and the complexities of yourself and inviting in and actively intentionally bringing in everything that elevates your personal landscape. When you are in that pure space of sacred expression in glamour magic is a part of that, that is full hallowed ground. However, the haunted part is when glamour magic is used to control or manipulate others and to usurp their free will. Under no circumstances, should we be using glamour magic to force someone to do what we want them to do.


This is also different than hexes, bindings and curses. I just want to point that out and get that out of the way, because that is a whole other topic, but I would never use glamour magic as a way to make someone else do what I want them to do, because that shit can backfire so fast. It’s like doing a love spell. I would personally never do a love spell because I don’t want to be responsible for the fallout of the spell that I do. My glamour magic is purely for me too, it is purely for me to express and be in landscape expansion of myself and to feel into, and embrace and accept and empower myself. Glamour magic can


Step easily into this, into the haunted space, into the tombstone space, into the space that is not serving us. When we use glamour magic to completely override someone else’s free well, or to hurt them or to use them to take advantage of them. That’s not, that’s not okay. So what are some ways that we can use glamour magic? There’s the obvious, like I said, makeup, clothes, shoes, bags, and designer labels, or social media or pop culture, or popularity can really influence glamour magic into a space of leaning, I would say more towards the haunted than the hallowed. So for instance, going back to the statement, there’s only one way to be beautiful. If you want to look like one of the supermodels, you see, let’s just say like the Jenners or the Kardashians, because they’re such a big family. Now, if you truly want to look that way, and that is in your heart of hearts, and then it’s your truth.


That is beautiful and gorgeous. And I encourage you in all ways to use your glamour magic, to influence and to elevate your landscape, to match that vision you have of it. If you feel that you need to look like that because they are successful, they have a lot of money, people know their names. That is where glamour magic can go out of control, in my opinion, because you’re actively seeking to change your landscape based on what an external source or an external presence or an external pressure is telling you to do. So there is also a very big difference between internal truth and external pressure. Do not feel pressured in any way to look a certain way, have a certain type of aesthetic to have a certain type of bag or shoes or clothes. If you want them, if you truly want them then again, awesome, beautiful, great.


Go and buy them and love them and cherish them. But if you feel that you need to have designer labels or a certain haircut or a certain type of look, because that’s what you see on TV and it doesn’t match your internal truth, then don’t do it. I think glamour magic is one form where we can often see external pressures because, well, let me back up. When we think of our magical selves or spirituals selves, we think of that as being our sovereign place, and it is and it should be. That is the place that no one else can touch unless we let them, no one else can influence you to change your beliefs, to change your opinions unless you choose to do so. And so glamour magic is a part of that. That, and it should be a part of that because it is a part of your magical and spiritual self it’s part of your ritual.


It’s a part of your craft and it should be sovereign. So again, if your sovereign truth matches up with what you see in Instagram, in pop culture, and it’s seen as like what’s trendy then absolutely. But if it’s not within your truth, then that is where glamour magic can stray into the haunted because you were letting external pressure strip you of your sovereignty, strip you of your sovereign truth and conform it to a way that’s easily acceptable. And that is not what glamour magic is about. Glamour magic is about owning and honoring and embracing the power that you have as a unique and sovereign being, because that is fucking beautiful. And however, that looks however extra, that is however, not extra that it, however, that is, it’s beautiful because it’s your, so when we look to glamour magic, it’s really important to make sure that we are coming from a place of autonomy, and self-governance because we don’t want to let those external pressures make us feel like we have to spend money, look a certain way, act a certain way, or be a certain way. This is also leading into a conversation that I would just love to have on the podcast as well, about how can we be sovereign in our magical selves when you’re constantly being sold to, and glamour magic fits beautifully into that, but it leads so much more into other pieces as well. Then I obviously won’t get into, but I just want to make the point that glamour magic is about expressing your sovereign truth. It’s about expressing your landscape. Your landscape is different from everybody else’s because it is yours in glamour magic can be used in all sorts of ways. We’re going to be saying a lot of clever magic with Halloween coming up.


Costumes are excellent form of glamour magic because it totally allows you to step into a character, whatever that character is, and feel into that sensational shift. When you put that costume on, it’s like an, it’s like an armor in a way it’s, it truly is like an energy change. It’s like an energy upload of whatever character or whatever costume you have, and it doesn’t have to be Halloween. That’s just obviously what’s coming up. So Halloween is a great time to step into glamour magic. If that’s the only time of the year, you want to step into intentional glamour magic, that’s great. I invite you if you, are going to go out and if you are going to be in customer, if you’re just going to be in costume and hand out candy, even, when you put your costume on, just take a moment just to see how the energy shifts with you. Take a moment to kind of see and feel into the sensation of that costume and feel it to the sensation of yourself wearing that costume. And I can almost guarantee you, I would bet dollars to donuts that you would, that you’re going to feel an energetic shift and energetic upload of whatever costume you wear. So other ways to use glamour magic, if you do not want to use makeup is just to invite in color theory.


If you want to decorate your house, or maybe you want to plant some flowers and you kind of want to bring in color theory, maybe to make it more peaceful or to make it match a certain energy on a certain vibe that you want. You can use color theory in that way. And that’s a form of glamour magic because again you’re elevating the landscape of something. So if it’s your home, you’re elevating the landscape of your home by what you intentionally bring into it. Another form of glamour magic, and this is one that I reject a little bit. It kind of goes back to color theory a little bit, but you see this even in ways that you may not have ever known that layer of magic was being used in it. If you’re not using it intentionally, I wouldn’t call it glamour magic, but I see it as a form of glamour magic and that is


dressing up for an interview. I don’t know if you were ever told, but I was told when I go to an interview to wear neutral- toned clothes, so wear beige and tan, black, white, maybe that was pretty much it because neutrals will allow the boss or the person doing the interview. They’re going to get a neutral effects from your outfit. And so they’re going to be focused on what you have to say in the interview. They’re going to be focused on your questions. If you wear something bright and bold, they may not be focused on you. I think if they can’t focus on you and they’re focused on an article of clothing, then maybe they shouldn’t be doing the interview, but that’s just me. But that is a form of glamour magic that you dress a certain way to reap a benefit or again, to invoke a reaction or to step into an expression of power.


Also go into belief systems, just believing that you are a sovereign, beautiful being is going to elevate your magic. I fully believe glamour magic is, is going to help you take control of some energies that are within your control. This can also be again, as all things can be both on the haunted and the hallowed, so when I step into my morning ritual of getting ready, and I am doing my whole shebang, that is me taking control of my day. That is me saying, I am worth the time to do this because I want to do it. If I didn’t want to do it, I wouldn’t. And that can also though go to that sense of control can go again towards the haunted end of the spectrum. You see this in things like, again, like using it to manipulate someone’s force of will. Another way that we can see glamour magic go wrong is in just out of control, obsessive vanity.


I would like to make clear that when I say obsessive vanity, I don’t mean it with any sort of judgment or stigma attached. I am not using that term or referencing that term with the intention to again, limit the narrative or the conception of beauty into one limited narrow path. I believe everyone should be able to look and feel and express themselves internally and externally. However, their truth leads them to. What I’m talking about. When I say obsessive, what my point is is when we place looks and aesthetics above everything else as significant or important. When we base the entirety of our importance on looks or aesthetics, we’re limiting ourselves to one narrow path, one narrow narrative of what it means to be worth or of value live your extra life. Do whatever you feel you need or want to you that is in alignment with your truth.


But I would at least invite, suggest,, or encourage and hope that however, extra you are, however you lead yourself or express yourself internally and externally that you’re doing it from that place of truth and not placing aesthetics and looks has the foundation or pinnacle of all your worth, because that is obviously not true. You are worth so much more. You are more valuable than just how you look or how you’re perceived in this world. I’m saying that obsessive vanity is a place where we feel that we have to be beautiful. We have to subscribe to this version or this narrative of aesthetics and looks, because that’s how we will be perceived as worthy as important or as the only way to step into our power. And honestly, that is not the only way to express our power to embody our power. There are so many other ways that glamour magic is merely one of them.


And so I just, I would like to make that point clear. Glamour magic can turn into the haunteded can step into that haunted space. When we place glamour magic or place the outcome of glamour magic above every other way of claiming ourselves. When we put it in parts of every other form or power or we reduce our power to nothing but glamour magic, we can even see this in trends. We can see glamour magic being used through social media, pop culture, and what’s popular, and what’s trendy to the extent of appropriation YouTube. I used to watch, you know, different like beauty gurus on YouTube, and I have stopped that because the beauty community is just so toxic inmy opinion, not all of them are toxic, but just the community as a whole is a toxic place. There used to be this trend going around.


That was just so dumb when people would be color correcting using different colors like green or blue or yellow or lavender to color correct their face, and then you blend them out with like a brush or a beauty blender or a sponge because you’re trying to correct any colors or blemishes or imperfections within your skin. Well, it started turning a very normal standard beauty practice of color, correcting morphed into just pure appropriation because people started to try to do like really elaborate looks with their color correctors, and you can like see this, you can like go on YouTube and find this where they would want their color corrector to have a look before they blended it out. And it often straight into makeup gurus using their color correctors to basically paint indigenous face paint on them. That’s pure appropriation. It goes back to intention.


Also, I think very important to come back to truth, and sometimes that can be a historical or cultural truth. When we bring something in intentionally, we want to make sure that we are not overstepping overreaching, especially those of us with privilege. Cis-gender white people want to make sure that we are not stepping over and on the representation or undermining the representation of someone else to fulfill our own glamour magic.

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October Monthly Cards

The monthly cards for October are Judgment and Thanatos, perfect cards for this month, and this time. These cards are also both often misunderstood, and I hope to shed some light on how these cards can be beneficial and beautiful.

Judgement, at its core, is about awakening your sacred service to your higher calling. It is about finding and channeling your freedom from the bondage of anything that holds you down. In the light, Judgement opens us to deeper levels of sensation, allowing interpretation and communication between the self, the spirit, the environment, and others to deepen and become more clear.

Judgement is not merely about rebirth. Rebirth is a beautiful thing, and it is needed on our Fool’s journey, however; Judgement is about recognizing that as we move through the last phases of this cycle we recognize that we cannot carry things that do not serve us. This means that Judgment can also bring about challenge or obstacle, because we are going to have to leave something behind. Judgement is the card that comes after the Sun, the Moon, and the Star. This indicates that as we move forward, we are moving forward with clarity and awakening from both consciousness raising, reflection, and stillness.

Thanatos is the God, or sometimes referred to as the Spirit, of Death. His presence is not about violence or pain. The space that Thanatos holds is simply the clock, or thread, of our lives. There is an end, and when that end comes Thanatos comes and gently takes our spirit to the Underworld. The legend states that he was born as a shard broken from the body of the Goddess of Night, Nyx. His brother, Hypnos is the God of Sleep.

The key message with Thanatos is that his presence is constant, even if, at times it is metaphorical. Death is the counterweight to life. It gives it meaning and purpose. Death motivates us to live, but it also brings intense grief, pain, and loss. Those who are marked by death are never the same. They have come close to the Underworld, to the last, and ultimate threshold.

There is a sweeping similarity with both of these cards, and that is loss. Judgement may not mean loss in the sense of Death, just like Thanatos may not represent a physical death. They both speak to losing and releasing something that has come a long way with us, and given us breadth, has elevated our journey to this moment. They also both speak to transcending and moving past this present moment, although their movement moves in opposite directions.

Judgement takes us closer to the divine, to higher awareness or knowledge, and into forgiveness, love, compassion, and clarity. Thanatos takes us to the Underworld, to the drastic, to the forced or willing release. Thanatos strips us bare. When his energy comes we relinquish power and choice and action. There is no other way. There is only an end that leaves the void for something new. Judgement clothes us in possibility, in new purpose, in a new cycle.

In working with these cards for this month, look to what you are being asked, or forced, to release. Look to what is within a death cycle around you. Tend to your physical body during this process, because your body is the container for all this moving and releasing. It is bound to feel it in some way. For October, see where you are being called to rise in your presence, and also where you are being asked to relinquish presence.

For me, Thanatos and Judgement have greatly shaped some decisions that I have needed to make in terms of presence. They were asking me to be honest, and accept the death cycles where they were stirring in me. Because of that, I have decided to stop doing the monthly zines. I will still be pulling monthly cards, but the zines were starting to take more out of me than they were giving. It was time to release space so that I could more fully focus on the podcast, and courses that I want to create as part of my spiritual council sessions.

I hope that as you embody this card, you find new or reclaimed purpose. I hope your emotions move like a river towards an endless ocean. I hope you have ease and comfort where needed. These cards are quite heavy, so again, take special care to nourish the body with whole foods, medicinal herbs (if you use them), sleep, and support. I was surprised at first how fitting these cards where for the times and month that we are in, but now, I believe and know there is a purpose for their messages. Much love! XOXO

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Challenges with the Page of Wands reversed

I am one of those tarot readers that rejects the idea of reversals meaning bad, no, or anything opposite of joy. In fact, some of my best tarot medicine has come from reversals, reminding me to tune into the subtle vibrations within me to elevate my heart and my spirit. However, I had an experience pulling a tarot card the other day that has not left me alone. When that happens, I know I need to give it a bigger and broader voice to let these messages be of service.

I have been slowly rebuilding my routine of pulling a tarot card every day. Actually, right now it is about every day, but what is one or two more days, right? I sat out in the suddenly chilly Colorado air Saturday morning, and pulling a card over, I asked for guidance. I pulled the Page of Wands reversed. Immediately, I felt a tightening and gripping sensation with this card. My intuitive way of confronting the challenge.

Tarot is NOT all rainbows and butterflies, and any tarot reader who tells you that is selling you a bill of goods. I am sorry, but it’s true. Tarot can be incredibly challenging, and also incredibly healing. With tarot, you are getting all the energies that come with the cards. Some days that energy is beautiful and radiant. Other days, it is a struggle to meet the energy on solid ground.

That is how I felt pulling the Page of Wands reversed. So, in the spirit of meeting this energy with grace and love and honesty, let’s dive into what challenges can come from the Page of Wands. First, a quick reminder about this card. The Page of Wands is the dreamer and initiator of spirit movement. The Page of Wands is the one who calls into being the outline and calling of spirit manifestation that the Son will then move and shake and stir into action. There is also the elements to consider.

These two elements come from the elemental association of the card, and the Court Title of Page. The wands represent fire. The Pages (as their own identity) represent Earth. These two energies stand at polar opposites in many ways, mostly in movement. Earth growth is often shockingly slow, with some exceptions. Fire growth burns hot and quick and it feeds. This means that the fire energy within wants to move, but the earth energy needs time to stir and dwell and hold.

Passion and growth are not on the same time table: My passion for tarot is a ferocious fire that will never go out. However, growing into this process is like the growth of a tree. It is happening, but it is hard to see or feel it in the moment sometimes. If there is something that you are passionate about, and you feel it so deeply in your bones that it almost hurts, but it is slow to rise towards the vision you hold within, that is Page of Wands energy in its shadow form.

One of the reasons that these two energies are so opposite of each other is that both passion and growth work with visions and dreams and wants. Passion sees everything through rose-colored glasses, while growth is met by the ego, who wants everything to be kept safe and comfortable and understandable. Growth needs time to stop, pause, reconsider, and thrive. Passion wants everything to unfold beautifully, organically, passionately.

This can be a huge challenge for the ego. It can be hard to remind ourselves that growth is happening, especially when it seems like it happens so quick for other people. Sometimes it does, and that is just the luck of the draw. Other times, it is important remember how you are seeing someone else’s growth. Are you seeing it through the lens of social media or a website, or are you seeing the real and raw energy that comes with growth?

When the pages are in their shadow element, and the dreams and visions become cloudy, it can be hard to keep your head above the metaphorical water. It can be hard to see the forest for the trees. It can be hard to hold the burning desires of the wand’s fire, while moving with the vibrations and rhythms of the earth. If this resonates with you at all, I invite you to take time to see where your passion can be directed, mindfully. Where can you place some energy so that it feels like you are merging these two elemental spaces?

One of the best ways I know, is that when I deeply feel the passion of the wands, but my growth is that of a tree, I tend to my physical space. I tend to my body. Movement, exercise, food, and tending are all beautiful ways to give your passion purpose. Move your passion back into alignment by redirecting it. Also, take a look at where you are putting your energy. Are you getting caught in the scroll-hole of comparisons? Are you getting caught up in drama because it’s exciting? See where your passion may be meeting forces that could compromise it.

Finally, remember that patience will allow this energy to pass. Practice patience and stillness. The Page of Wands never wants to be still. By practicing even a little bit of mindful slowing, you may be surprised how the pace that many people set for themselves is based more on output and expectation that need and control require. I wish you many blessings. If you would still like some help setting this space into alignment, consider my spiritual wellness coaching sessions. At $40 for an hour, we will look at how to use these confrontations and contractions towards your purpose and higher alignment.

Much Love!

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The Ocean: The Incomprehensible, Intuitive Reminder

The Ocean from The Wild Unknown Archetypes Deck

I move through phases of daily pulls, in and out, a recurring theme based on the card above. At times, I want nothing more than to wake up, grab my cup of coffee, give my kitties a boop on the snoot, and then sit down with the cards, let them open me to deeper messages, and the divine.

Other times, the mere thought of sitting down for a daily pull feels like pulling teeth. It feels like the energies are too big and vague for one mere day, and I want something more than a message. During these times, I spend my morning reading books (not a bad habit), or going straight into my work.

Moving into and out of these energies at times makes me feel like I need structure, like I am wafting the creative energy right out of my space, while trying to call it in at the same time. It made me feel like my tarot practice, something that I have spent years now building to reach others and be of service for others, is still sometimes shaky. When looking to others creations, especially on social media, it seems that everyone else has structure, organization, personal clarity with their work.

However, this is not the case. Let me set the scene…….

I have been working with a business coach, the lovely Kelly-Ann Maddox, and she has been helping me get clear about some of the concepts mentioned above, along with many others. One of the things that we discussed was getting me out from behind the screen, making a more intimate connection with my viewers and readers. This is a huge point of growth for me, really stepping me out of my comfort zone, but I was determined to try. If I looked like an idiot, at least I would be able to say that this format is not for me, and gain a valuable lesson along the way.

So, I started filming myself, and it took about 40 attempts for me to get it to a place I was happy putting out onto Instagram. 40 ATTEMPTS. 40! This sentence makes me laugh, but it is true. I kept stumbling over my words and I had to sit on my desk with my phone propped up against the window because that is where I get the best light. After I put it out on Instagram, I accepted the fact that it wasn’t perfect, and that I probably was super awkward.

I started to get a few comments and views, but it was later last night that I received a comment that really touched me, and it was from someone whose creations I really admire. She said that my post resonated with her. MINE! My awkward self actually had something to give to someone else, and while I was judging and assuming that my video would not be well received, it actually really helped someone else, which makes my heart fuzzy.

I started writing this blog about the Ocean, and then digressed to something that happened yesterday, so what is the point? This is the point: do not assume what you do not know. Unconsciously, my offerings are based in my truth. Consciously, I fear the formalities (looking like an idiot, not being clear in my message.) This is Ocean energy.

The Ocean card speaks to immeasurable depths, relating to the unconscious and the incomprehensible. The Ocean archetype is alive when larger energies are at play that create change. The Ocean is present when we accept that Ocean cannot be tamed or taught. In order to merge with the unconscious, all we can do is surrender to the process, surrender to the guiding, larger forces that are present.

I knew that I was being called to step out of my comfort zone. I knew that it was in my higher and better self to be vulnerable, to be willing to raw on social media, a place where everything is polished and poised. The Ocean in this situation is reminding me that there is so much more beneath the surface, My unconscious self was ready for this growth, but my conscious mind was afraid and nervous.

If you are feeling out of balance, nervous, anxious, lean into Ocean energy. Pulling this card after my experience yesterday, it reaffirms to me that there is so much more beneath the surface than what I know. There is so much to gain and enjoy from following the path of higher calling, but there is so much unknown that it can be daunting to even attempt such a task. Don’t try to master or manipulate Ocean energy. Instead, use Ocean energy to let you embrace change with each small step. Use Ocean energy to connect and create alignment between conscious and unconscious spaces. They are both a part of you. Use Ocean energy to witness this spectrum, and attempt new things to create that change. It may not be pretty, but it will be beautiful.

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Reflections on an old blog post

The 5 of Cups from all my decks. Single pictures below.

Sometimes the most poignant lessons come from the ones you have already written. Sometimes the words that you wrote ages ago can reveal to you how far you have come, and how much you have offered before. These old teachings have the honor of coming from you, and following through you to become again.

Lately, I have been stirring the energies of my old writings. Between my blog and many, many journals I am able to see and remember the path that I have taken with tarot. I want to share an old blog post with you, one that I wrote on December 5, 2016. This time was right at the infancy of Tea and Tombstones, and my initiation into the tarot. I began to read tarot as a mere hobby, but my writings (at least I hope) show how quickly tarot settled into my very bones, changing my internal narrative, as well as the words that I offered out into the world. I want to share how I see this old post, and this card.

5 of Cups from the Mystical Dream Tarot. The emotional vessel we are means that we have to be mindful of when we are full or overflowing. Emotions and reason embrace the depth of knowledge to be gained. Mindful grace will help that which is in the depth come to light.

I started learning tarot very slowly, pulling a card once a day, but really committing to writing about a card weekly, which highlights one huge change. I don’t do a weekly pull anymore. Why? Because I believe that tarot has so much to offer that I could spend a whole life time on one single card. Now I do the monthly ezines to explore more deeply the resonance with each card. In between the texts I have included the 5 of Cups from all my decks, highlighting the many images that I personally have with this card. The old text will be colored in yellow to highlight the breaks between my past post, and this current one I am writing now.

The first card in this weekly series is the 5 of cups. This is perhaps not the most inspiring card to begin the week, but there is a lot that can be gained from this cup, and understanding the energy behind it. With this card there is disillusionment, depression, a feeling of loss, or focus on the negative aspects in life.

5 of Water / Goldenseal from the Herbcrafter’s Tarot. All the fives relate to endangered herbs, Goldenseal being one of the most endangered herbs. There is a need to face the threats coming in, but to move from a space of mindful protection to create nourishing restoration.

I find both truth and also a novice simplicity to this card. The 5’s all represent confrontation, conflict, or challenge of some kind. The fives are not easy to deal with, but they offer a deep pull towards the spectrum, towards the communal nature of your beautiful spirit. It isn’t always easy. I do still believe that the 5 of Cups speaks to disillusionment, loss, grief. But, I think that the 5 of Cups also speaks to what it means to feel courage. To reveal the truth of your heart brings the other side of the spectrum. It brings the fear that keeps us stagnant, retreating towards safety. When the very nature of the heart brings opposition, confliction, or doubt, our heart beats more rapidly. We feel like we must choose between truth or freedom. In reality, they are one and the same. They are the embodiment of what it means to feel into emotional vulnerability at the very moment we are seeking security and safety.

This card speaks to what every person feels in life at some point. It is not always a joyful ride. With joy comes grief, with changes come emotional turmoil, with relationships comes setbacks or breakups. There is so much going on in the world politically, socially, and individually. It is normal to feel the weight of changes and uncertainties. Human are messy creatures that can hurt or be hurt. Hurt comes in many forms. Even just this time of year brings out a sense of isolation and solitude.

5 of Cups from the Dragon Tarot. Although not an interactive image, this card speaks to not dwell on dissatisfaction. All emotions will move through, but it is always within your power to sit with the discomfort, and create your own transformative fire.

I felt the 5 of Cups stir in me when I turned on the news, tapped into any social event, or felt into what it meant to be a person, living and breathing, during the times of 2016. I feel the 5 of Cups now. I feel the 5 of Cups now when I look at my platform and my business. There is so much I wanted to do with this blog, and looking back on it, on all my previous posts, I realize that I kept myself looking into the dark abyss, feeling inadequate, feeling not good enough, feeling like I wasn’t worthy of having the platform I desire.

That is what the 5 of Cups teaches us. It teaches us that emotions can be a predictor for how we show up in the world. That is not to say that we should never feel any shadow emotions. All emotions are valuable teachers, but when we dwell on those negative emotions, those fears and vulnerabilities, it can stagnate us. It can halt us in our tracks when all we want to do is run.

What can be gained from this card is a personal, emotional check- in. If these feelings are present, the best thing right now can be restraint and reflection. Hasty decisions can make situations worse. It is ok to disengage. It is ok to say not right now, and it is ok to sit with these emotions for a while before reaching conclusions.

5 of Cups from the Wild Unknown. Freedom to move and choose and act and breathe is still possible, but it requires your courageous heart to acknowledge and reveal. Vulnerability is the only way to be whole. We cannot move from both love and fear.

This is still one of my biggest action-points with the 5 of Cups, and what I speak to with clients. The 5 of Cups should teach us that acknowledgment is not the same as dwelling. Dwelling, as mentioned leads to stagnation. But acknowledging our discomfort, our troubling emotions, and letting it move us towards reflection can create a beautiful window that lets all the light in. If you find yourself in the 5 of Cups, it is important to lean into self-care and restraint. Reactive emotions can create more problems. Reflective emotions can create great change.

Pulling this card today reminds me that energy is cyclical, but actions don’t have to be. This time of year, whether it is the holidays, the election, or the general nature of things, is already a hard time. Focus on what is positive, and what deserves that positive energy. Expectations and actions can be improved. Reflect and move forward when the time is right.

5 of Cups from Ostara Tarot. When we focus on loss from the perspective of ego, we cannot see that loss is inevitable to free the spirit. When we focus on what we lack, we continue to sit in skin that is begging us to shed and grow. Look up. Sit in the discomfort. This too will provide you everything you need.

I also fully believe that emotions can be cyclical. Frustration, hurt, guilt, shame, discomfort, and more will surface again and again. Each time they do, we have are given the gift of choice, so that our actions are not the same as before, if those previous actions were not helpful, or led to further hurt. We have all been the receiver and giver of these hard emotions. Letting reflection come through by acknowledging the emotion can show us what can bring us back to center.

Overall, I feel into this card much like I did years ago. There are obvious nuances and subtleties that will grow and change over time, but the paydirt of this card still holds me the same way. I cannot say I love this card, but I love that it reminds me that I am human, and that I can be messy even when I am ascending spiritually. I love that this card shows me the way out is through, and that my, and your, courageous heart can flourish towards personal and communal good.