Mother of Cups in the Dark

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There have been numerous words given to the Mother of Cups, full of praise and light, justly deserved. But there needs to be time given to the dark mother, the one in the corner, carrying wounds and weapons that haven’t been seen.

There are many reasons why it is important to go into the dark side of the tarot:

1.) There is no card in the deck that is strictly good or bad. They all carry the cosmos of light and trouble.

2.) There is no one way to “define” good or bad. Is a good card good because it makes us feel positive? Is a “bad” card the good one because it challenges us to grow and learn so we can honor our highest potential?

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The Mother of Cups promotes self-love, self-discovery, the need for boundaries, and a self-actualized encouragement to go deeper into what we love and cherish in this moment. However, despite these nuisances of deeper love and celebration, the Mother of Cups (just like any other card) has a dark side that reveals obstacles, troubles, or a need for change.

The Mother of Cups shows the beauty of self-love and love to others, but that doesn’t mean that everyone we are around is someone who will bring us joy. We are often required to be around others who we do not hold the best feelings for. This is not a shadow element, but how we deal with this can become a shadow element if we are unchecked in certain behaviors.

One behavior is shit-talking. This behavior does nothing but breed hostility. We are vocalizing our negative feelings,  but not in a way that reaches any conclusion or solution for growth. I want to be clear that shit-talking is not the same as venting. When we vent to someone, we are also not looking for any conclusion to be met, nor are we trying to make a point. We are simply letting out our emotions to someone we trust, or venting in a journal. When someone is trash-talking someone else, we are not trying to reach a solution, but we ARE trying to make a point of how bad this other person is.

When someone trash-talks another it is often because they would never express their feelings in a constructive way to the person involved. Obviously, this is problematic behavior. The Mother of Cup teaches self-love. If we are hurt or upset with someone that is okay, but it becomes problematic when we refuse to address the issue, and resort to bad-mouthing someone behind their back.

 

Another dark side to the Mother of Cups is the need for validation from others. If there is a need to be validated or approved by others, it can often be because of deep-rooted insecurities. The problem here is that the gratification for validation never promotes self-love because it didn’t through us or for us. It came out of a need to be enriched by the words of others, to be seen or in the spotlight. When we practice self-love, we are validating our own vulnerable nature, complete with gifts and flaws.

The urge to be validated can be seen in many ways. It can be seen in jealousy, that we want more validation that someone else. It can be seen in toxic comparisons, or in the need to be competitive with another person, to outdo them and shine brighter. Obviously, all of these are problematic because it fosters a negative outlook. It preaches that we don’t have enough, but it never encourages a healthy way to express our emotions.

Finally, the Mother of Cups is highly intuitive and nurturing. Because of these qualities, she is also prone to burn-out, creative dismantling, or emotionally worn. If the Mother of Cups does not take time to spend alone or with others who fuel her creative or emotional passions, if she is constantly fulfilling the needs of others while neglecting herself, she will burn out. Boundaries and the Sacred No are incredibly important for the Mother of Cups. She needs to be able to take care of herself so that she can serve others.

**Please note that I am not saying that these traits equal a bad person. We all hold and often can act on this dark elements at times. What is important to be mindful, and work to foster an environment where we are self-loving, and promoting love and honesty to others.**

Let me know your thoughts!

Much love Wolflings,

Ashlie

November cards: Dragonfly and the Mother of Cups

Dearest Wolflings,

We have passed through a harsh month, full of dichotomies and conflicting energies. I am happy to say that November is going to be a time of reflection, tapping into mindful directions, and listening to the rolling waves of our hearts. We move into the month of the Dragonfly and the Mother of Cups. Both cards tap into ancient wisdom of mindful intentions and actions. These cards harness a need to go deeper into the psyche, to heal wounds and learn more about our power.

Dragonfly and the Mother of Cups

Starting with the Dragonfly, this spirit animal has been seen in symbols across almost every culture. They have been around in some form for millions of years. They have seen the changes of the Earth, the rivers, the mountains, and the seasons through eyes that make the bulk of their head. They must keep moving, and they can move in all directions. These ancient ones call on us to see, to be still, and to move with direction. They call on us to quiet the mind and listen to the wisdom that come from being a part of this world. Acting with direction is key. Thinking before speaking is key. Creating powerful intentions and visualizations are key. The first step is to come into rhythm of silence by quieting the mind. Sit alone and meditate. Journal your thoughts and feelings. Create something for the simple sake of creation. The mind is able to move with purpose when we create buffers to safeguard the positive thoughts we are starting to manifest with this animal energy.

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All the mothers are the Healers. They are the Keepers of knowledge, lineage, and ritual. They safeguard the treasures of history and heritage. The Mother of Cups is double-water. Everything about her flows from the well of creation and intuition. In some ways she is like the Empress, endless in her capacities of love for the sake of love. They both radiate the light of inner acceptance, inner bloom. Where they depart is the Empress is the bridge between the High Priestess and the Emperor. She understands the messages of this world, but she is creative and channels her gifts towards the dawn of new possibilities which the Emperor enforces.

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The Mother of Cups is more internal, spending more time in ritual and in sacred space. She is highly intuitive and spiritual, but she is less public, less out in the open. Her gifts are born and brought from a place that she cannot share with others. Because she is a Swan, she is of two worlds. One of the land, and one of dark water. Because she is of two worlds she is also a bridge, a bridge between the tangible manifestation and the deep, pulsating quiet of the heart. She is a Keeper of the heart, of relationships, and selfless love, and a Healer to the world when she comes to the surface.

If there is one line I could write to describe what messages I am receiving from these cards, it would be: Quiet the mind. Channel the heart. Going deeper into the subconscious, into wishes and dreams, and manifesting positivity, ritual, heritage, our inner lineage is a tall order. How can we keep things out of our minds when so much is happening that is trying to force its way in? By creating boundaries. Like the Mother, we need to be of almost two worlds. The visible one on land where we bond and love and speak about how that love is never going to go away. But we also must go deeper to heal and learn and channel that love into ourselves for manifestation. Last month saw intense energy, now we must quiet the mind, and channel the heart for change.

**Thank you for reading. Please let me know your thoughts on these cards for November. Much love. Stay wild, wolfling!**

The first book I learned to read tarot with, and how a glossy page can make all the difference.

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Do you ever stand in a bookstore, your eyes darting back and forth between the titles, unsure of which one is the right keeper of knowledge? When I first started to read tarot, it was out of necessity. I needed to put a pulse back in my chest, and a roar back in my throat if I was to brave another year. I went to the bookstore, knowing that I wanted a book worthy of this step. But all the titles professed the same action. They all held promise of expansion and depth, spirit making strides.

I finally settled on this book: The Key to Tarot: From Suits to Symbolism; Advice and Exercises to Unlock your Mystical Potential by Sarah Bartlett. Why did I settle on this book, because it felt beautiful in my hands. The hard, chocolate brown cover felt appropriate. The pages were colored. The pages were glossy. There was something about the shine, the texture, the lift of reds and blues from the page that made me settle on this one.

This book is a great beginner’s book because it goes into each card well for a beginner level. It includes exercises and meditations to connect more deeply into yourself and the craft. It also has some good spreads that I still use today. I must admit that I no longer reach for this book that much, but as my very first tarot book, it was a star-find. Other books that I have purchased since then have not fully compared to this book. Perhaps it is my nostalgia. Perhaps it is glossy pages and way the spine creases into the skin of my folded legs. I don’t know, but I love this little book.

I had placed this book on a shelf after I read it, and moved on to other titles. I came across some journal posts from when I first started reading, and I realized how much writing I did when I was travelling through this book. I wrote in my journal constantly. Everything was somehow related to the meanings of the cards that I was slowly absorbing with this book. I din’t think too much of it. I read the journal posts, smiled at how far I have come, and went about my day.

That was about a week ago. Since then I have gone through many books on my shelves, packing the one that I know I want to keep, but will not read for some time. Others, given away as donations. I pulled this book down off the shelf I was going through and again felt that tinge of nostalgia, like looking at an old picture of myself. I really wanted to go through some of the meditations and exercises again to really see how my tarot interpretations have become layered.

If you are new to tarot, document everything! Write it down, film it, take pictures, draw it. However you do it, just do it. Document your travels because it will become a map. It will show you how to rejoin an old part of yourself that perhaps has slithered deep into the dusky layer of the subconscious. Document so you can look back and see what your gut thoughts were. Don’t take the interpretations in the pages (no matter how glossy) as gospel. Make your own choices and see what is right for you. For example, the book mentioned here reads Court Cards as other people. I have never found Court Cards to be representative messages of other people. Never. Do what feels right, and keep it documented so you can come back with a seasoned heart later for reconnection.

You can find Sarah’s book here, along with many other books that she has written. This is not an affiliate code. I think this is a great little book if you are a tarot novice, or looking for your first book. I would love to hear the books that guided your path, tarot or otherwise. Much love wolflings!

 

 

Wellness Wednesday: Breathing and the King of Pentacles

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(Breathing is the second dimension in John W. Travis’s 12 Dimensional Model of wellness, but I found them through Michael Arloski’s book Wellness Coaching for Lasting Lifestyle Change)

One does not have to look far these days to read about the effects both physically and physiologically when it comes to the breath. The action of breathing and finding breath is now used across a wide variety of modalities to center, ground, and come back to self. Breath is the source. It is the lifeline to all that we do, and all that we have done. All of these new breathing techniques may seem like quackery, but there is something very real in coming back to the breath.

When was the last time you counted your breaths? When was the last time you actively breathed? We are all breathing because breath is life, but when was the last time you acknowledged this force? If it has been a while, don’t worry. It is that way for many people. We get so caught up in the responsibilities and hustle of life that we keep going, knowing that our breathing will take us where we need to be, even if we completely forget about it.

But this simple act of connecting down into the breath does not have to be surrounded by the ideal setting of quiet reflection on a grassy hill. We can connect to breath anywhere. I like to connect to my breath while driving. I don’t need to close my eyes, and I don’t need to be completely serene. In fact, driving to school in morning traffic is probably the last place where we might expect to connect to breath, but I have found that is one the places where I need it most.

Feelings and emotions take about 90 seconds to process. That means that for 90 seconds, our physiology is responding to the waves of physical output from emotional input. In these 90 seconds, if we can allow ourselves to honor, hold, and learn about what is triggering us, it usually will drift away without physical consequences.

This is why I love connecting to my breath while I am driving. Anyone who drives in rush hour traffic can probably speak to the collective energy. Everyone is in a rush. Everyone needs to be somewhere. I often feel like there is a cloud of negativity while I drive. Someone is cutting someone off. Someone is being a jerk. Someone is getting pissed off, and people try to vocalize the cause and effect of right and wrong with their vehicle. Obviously this is not the place. It is dangerous and stupid, but road rage is a real thing.

But I ask: what would happen if instead of getting furious at the person who cut us off, we counted to 90? What if we used that 90 second time-frame to recognize we are angry and feel wronged, instead of acting out our feelings? This is not easy. No one is perfect at this, but it has become something of positive importance to me. By using those triggers to connect into my breath instead of lashing out I go deeper into myself, and spare myself from negative energies in trying to scrap with someone else.

Breath is such a powerful force. It can shape and mold how we deal with the hardest of situations. It is the sound we long to hear from just-born babies. It is the echo that we will slowly, but continuously put out there. Our breath is ours, and even when someone has wronged us, even when the unthinkable happens, we have our breath. Breath can help us cope through painful situations, and keep us centered as we attain victory. The King of Pentacles is a perfect example of of physical recognition and physiological mastery. Often the King of Pentacles is associated with ample wealth, but I would argue that having breath at all is more ample wealth that any material thing.

This idea has been surfacing for years, and now it is everywhere. From yoga to public speaking to coping mechanisms, breathing is becoming a real ally for us all. It grounds us down to the source, but expands our consciousness to the energies around us. The King of Pentacles is expansive in his physical abilities, and his physical kingdom. He rules over more than just his body, but it starts with him. The King of Pentacles can always find control over some physical dominion because he has learned how to control the inputs and outputs of life. We don’t have to be the King of Pentacles to start this process. Just start to acknowledge the breath. Count to 30-60-90, and breathe.

(Tarot card shown is from the Ostara Tarot)

Manifestation Package

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When you book a reading with me, one of the things that I offer is a Manifestation Package. This is more than just a free gift to say thank you for allowing me to work with you. The Manifestation Package is my attempt to help you channel the reading, long after our session. I want your reading to shake your bones and fill your space with stars. I want your feral, untamed nature to howl and sing forth the new energy that is coming in.

If you choose to accept this package. You get everything you see in the photo. There is a candle to help shed light on any card you are fixated on, or perhaps do not understand in its entirety yet. The candle is also meant to set an intention, and send the light out. Even the flame itself can show energy. If the fire is bright and vibrant, your energy is strong. If the flame is moving, or hard to manifest, this could be where you place your intention, an attempt to make your inner light breathe again.

The little incense stick is to consecrate your space. I fully believe in the energy of a space, and incense has been used for thousands of years to consecrate and channel a sacred feeling. The incense is Jasmine, and this scent has been used for many different purposes. More than anything, I hope it helps you feel intimate with your situation, and not wary. I hope you can stand in the smoke and be knighted in your attempts to deepen the reading into your source.

The Tiger’s Eye is meant to symbolize power. It can help rid anxiety and promote positive action in your endeavors. I believe you are already strong, but a reminder is always nice. You can hold them and help use the intention from the candle to connect further into your reading. You can channel a certain card or image that you want to hold. Stones are the weight of the world. They will keep burdens that you and I cannot bear to carry. Whatever came up in your reading, you can place it or release it with these stones.

The tea is meant to create a needed pause for reflection. As you sit with your reading, I hope in the moments when you know and feel you can sink in a little deeper, the tea is there to help be a catalyst. Allow yourself the time and silence to reflect on your reading, and what feelings and thoughts it brings up. This is the best way, the only way, to deepen your relationship with your cards.

The bag itself can even become a sacred space. You can anoint it with oil, use potpourri, keep written or physical insights from your reading. Bags have long been used as a way to keep close what we hold dear. I wanted the bag to dual purpose for that reason.

What is not shown is the handouts I also send via email. One in particular has spaces for you to write down anything that surfaces from using your manifestation package. I, as a tarot reader, am here to hold the torch for you. I am not here to simply give a reading and then forget the energy in a poof. I want the reading to resonate long after our time together. My card is in each package, and I hope that through our space, you can go deeper in a safe way to what is needed most.

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Stay wild wolflings!

Power Words for 2018

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Sometimes the best ideas are not ours. I was recently watching a YouTube video by Kelly-Ann Maddox, a tarot reader who I truly admire. She mentioned in her video that she uses power words to plan the year ahead. This immediately struck a cord with me. I organize in the present, but I have never been the best as scheduling and planning months down the road. I am most often found in the moment, organically moving through my circumstances. But I like the idea. I like the idea of trying to organize future thoughts into words, into power words. A schedule is hard to keep, but a word can be carried right in the back of my throat with no extra weight.

I chose three words as my power words: speak, protect, and navigate. I chose these words because they are words that I need the most. I need oomph in these areas. Using words that resonate power often means attaining power, finding what we need more of, or what is a current weakness that we need to overcome. I wanted to feel the rushing blood of purpose. With these words, I can prospect the hills and inside the skeleton of my own mountain to find that rich vein.

The first word is speak. This may seem odd because words are my first love. Writing is a worn fingerprint I gladly carry. I can say anything confidently when I write. Over the last couple of years though, speaking has been a much harder gem to mine. My throat has been barren, untouched by the choir of water. There were times that my speech would have provided the other two words: protection and navigation. Recently, there have been times where tensions arose and I subdued my opinion for civility. I kept silent over matters that were hurtful. My speech may not have affected the outcome, but it would have provided me an integral asset to myself, a foundation to stand on. My speech may not have subdued the tension, but it would have meant that I spoke my truth.

For this word, I chose the 5 of Swords. In the picture, there are five swords against a worm. This seems unnecessary. A worm is the totem creature for helplessness. They cannot see, and they cannot hear. They have no real defenses, save one. Sever the worm, and it still lives. This single, unassuming defense has rendered the sword useless. The slash hurt, but it did not kill. The worm will continue to move and live. I chose this card because standing up and speaking many times does not change the outcome. People will still question and think what they want, no matter the words of truth you give. But their words have fallen useless too. They cannot decimate, if my defense is to speak as well. Much like the worm, taking the words of others can hurt, but it doesn’t have to be the end. Going forward, I will choose to speak when needed. Not out of malice will I chose my words, but through courage. Courage to face a defense that may seem threatening. I will take a side, and believe in the defense of my words.

The second word is protect. This leaps off of the action of speaking. By speaking, I protect my core. I stand with and for myself. Protection is not hiding in the hole, hoping no one finds you. Protection is facing the threat, knowing exactly what I fear and why. Threats can affect our goals, and our desires. If we let that gray water (those that know this horror movie reference are awesome) into our mouths, we cannot fulfill our journey. Protecting ourselves means that down the road, we can have success.

There is perhaps no better picture in my deck than the Mother of Wands. Tucked around her eggs, the Mother of Wands is vigilant, ready to defend, and always protecting what is precious to her. Her eggs are the metaphor of manifestation. They are the embodiment of her light. What we manifest, or seek to create, is so precious to us that we must also be vigilant in protecting these fragile dreams. I chose protect because, much like the mother, protection means presence. It means to be and know what you stand for, despite all the threats that come. I have not always held the word with such reverence. For a while I was mute, unsure of what I wanted. Now I know better who I am and what I need. Protecting that light is key to fulfilling our highest selves.

The final word that I chose is navigate. As I mentioned before, over the last couple of years I have felt like I have been floating in a life raft, out of immediate danger, but not going anywhere. There was no direction. In fact, there was a lot of times where my time was filled with TV, unhealthy food, and a lack of books or conversation. I am not saying to kill your (or my) television. I am not saying that fast food now and then isn’t needed. But what is not needed is the void. The void where there is movement, but no direction.

For this word, I chose the 6 of Swords. The 6 of Swords is the travel to a new destination out of necessity. If we are not thriving were we are, and if nothing changes, we cannot effectively navigate our future. We cannot see through the storm if we stay beneath it. We must move. Navigation is the gateway to growth and new curiosity. Now, I am ready for school and am pointing myself in a new direction, much to the tarot’s credit. I am excited, not anxious. I am filling myself up with words and songs, instead of draining through emptiness. Navigation means there is much to look forward too, but only if we navigate ourselves onto the right path.

Again, I first got this idea from Kelly-Ann Maddox. Please go and check her out. Her content is amazing, and she has been a source of my inspiration and motivation. If you are like me, and planning and scheduling is not a great fit, pick a few words. Write them down. Place them in your pocket, in your wallet, or near your sacred space. Choose words that you need more of in your life. What do you need some power in? What words hold that power? These are mine, and I will hold them carefully as I traipse through 2018.

**Thank you for reading. Please let me know what words are your powers words. If you would like a personal tarot reading, please look to my options and email me at teaandtombstones@gmail.com. Stay wild howlers!**

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Card of the week: Reversed Father of Cups

 

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“In the mountains, where the pines bend and sigh like my swans. / At the table, where the teapot presides like my swans, over all lesser things. / My swans were sharp and hungry as desire, and I fed and forgave  /  them too.” ~ Veronica Patterson Where are My Swans?

 

Last week, we were standing on our edge, puncturing the flat surface of our internal lakes to unleash the flowing ripples. Now that the waters have been stirred, now that we have started to form that link between the oceans we endure and the shores we wait on, we need to focus on what that means for our emotions. Letting the creatures surface empowers us to hear that wild call and let our emotions start to shake. This comes with responsibilities. We need to rule with a thick skin, but a warm heart.

The father swan swims alone, black like obsidian. He is apart from the rest. This does not bother him. Behind him is a deluge. Again, he is undeterred. He gracefully floats, comfortable and at ease. He is completely folded in proper corners of awareness and insight. Because the Father of Cups is reversed here, his energy is on the internal level, not quite ready to breach the surface.

In this space, we need to be accountable for the emotions we hold. These emotions could manifest and leave the skin, or they could stay covered, continuing to ride the unseen currents. Wherever they end, these emotions carry weight. Our emotions are part of our cosmic canyons, heavy in consequences and rewards.

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In the light, the reversed Father of Cups speaks to gaining a grip on our emotions, and how it helps us conquer ground. We can internally process and grow, We can ignite the tinder of our circumstances and relationships. Here, we choose what we carry, and let what is important be known to others when the time is right. In this sacred space, there isn’t a need to fight others in pursuit to wave our emotional flags. We can bear the storm of circumstance, take what is given, and melt it down to be reborn again, soft as gold or hard as a diamond. We can be adorned in black feathers in a sea of white, and never feel out of place.

In the shadows, these emotions can turn toxic if we let them. Instead of using our emotions to buoy us, we can make them an anchor to take us down, believing we made a difference. It is normal to want our emotions to carry us across the waves, but we need to take point. We need to harbor ourselves ashore and safeguard the provisions we have. Emotions can be a beast to bear, becoming overwhelmed is an incredibly normal feeling, especially in the time and social climate we are in. But instead of trying to bargain our emotions for a physical reward, we should assume the role of beast and stand firm in the darkest nights. It could be easy to become a victim of our emotions, but where would we be if we let that happen?

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For this week, turn inward. Observe what emotions you carry or consume. Seek control and lead yourself through each day. If there is an obstacle, find a way through it. If there is someone or a situation that stands against you, clearly decide if your emotional fight is worth the battle scar. Let the emotions be fluid and reside in your internal house. The reversed Father of Cups shows us that we can maintain dominion, and fill ourselves to the ribs with good and bad emotions. They are a catalyst for beauty and war, and all the rolling thunder in between. What we take and give is a choice.

 

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Card of the Week: Mother of Swords

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“We dream in neurons. Form lost in forms, a blizzard of data blinds our motors.” ~ The Six- Cornered Snowflake by John Frederick

 

She has made a few appearances the last couple of weeks. However, when I draw in the card for the week, I keep the first one that I choose. It was chosen for a reason. In the previous week we were able to let go and walk away from painful emotions. Now, we shift ourselves in the knowledge of what is working for us.

Now, we turn our thoughts to rooting in the ideas of what we have, and how to use these tools. We have, and will need, a softness in our approach. The light in this card is the unfailing ability to cooperate with ourselves and others. She is the one that urges us to speak kindly, even when we may not want to. She is the one that can ease the individual and collective consciousness down to honest words and thoughts. We need more of her right now.

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We are in a space where the light in being sentient is snuffed out by the vulgar and ugly slack of others. Almost everyone takes in the glory of the world, but many never absorb it. There are so many ways to use our thoughts and words to shape something for the better. But sometimes it feels like we use these tools to merely survive the lacking stretch of humanity. Those who know the Mother of Swords, know this is not enough. We must plan, and then act.

I mentioned a couple of weeks ago some of the shadow energy of winged mother. Some of the energy is similar and worth noting. Card of the week: Reversed Mother of Swords
However, much of this shadow is external. If in the shadows, she can cause destruction and break down the foundation between us and others. She can cause the roots to die without a trace of evidence. If we breed toxicity in our minds, we will only have a toxic family. If we do not defend our lines, we will become the casualties of someone else’s mental games.

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We must be first rooted in ourselves. We must take our river of doubts and insecurities and remember that they help make our own ocean. We would not know what we can fully do if we don’t acknowledge the things that may hold us back. But the Mother of Swords reminds us that firm boundaries are there to protect us. Being grounded in our honesty is hard. But there is bravery in knowing the distance between protection and tenderness.

 

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Card of the week: Reversed Mother of Swords

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Woooh, says the wind, and I stop /  where I am, put out my arms / and look upward, allowing / myself to disappear. It is good to be here, and not here…..”
~ Windfalls, by Jane Kenyon

Last week, we became warriors. We stretched our listening beyond the immediate pain or paintings of ourselves. We had the audacity to run our dreams further than our colors. For a week, we could have been both bigger and smaller, wiser and more naive. This aggressive shift in energy can call forth the shadows, and also the light. For this week, we can either find a nurturing energy, or a fight that can wreck us into indifference.

There is a difference between withdrawing inwards to dust off the jars of thought and reason, and becoming numb to state of our mental home. We cannot honor our warrior self, or any other version, if the safer ground we seek is further than the echoing of our mind. Sometimes we must acknowledge the shadow and storm. Sometimes, we must step inside the deluge to find the ship we are meant to captain. If you need this time and space, take it.

The Reversed Mother of Swords can be a safe retreat. She can (if in the light) speak to strong boundaries, and a brave focus on yourself. Sometimes, there needs to be healthy selfishness. This can be tricky, and this is why the shadow is never far away. But selfishness, in healthy amounts, is something we all need.

There is a cultural teaching that we must always do more, work more, produce more. If we ever wish to ground ourselves, we must know when we need to take a step back and be enough as we are. Sometimes we may go to far in either direction, but this is normal. This is human.

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If the Reversed Mother of Swords is in her shadow state, we may not know or care that we have gone to far. We may strike, then run. We may take our fight and say that defeat is inevitable, and walk away. We no longer care or find inspiration in what we used to love and cherish.  We feel left behind after we took the necessary space we needed.

There are so many ways for this energy to manifest. One constant thread is that this all stems from the mind. Be a little selfish if you need. Stop yourself from entering a race that has no finish line. Take a break, but do not lose sight. Our warrior selves are still surging. Do not forget the weight of the sword.

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