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The Law of Creation

Law 2: The Law of Creation

The second karmic law is the Law of Creation. This law states that life does not merely happen by chance or coincidence. Life is formed in the forges of ourselves; we are the creators. This means that as creators for our own lives, it is imperative that we hold to our truth, and honor that which makes each of us who we are. If you hide your truth or refuse to be an active participant in the daily makings of your own life, it can be of no surprise then, when your life does not hold the glittering riches of what you value.

One of the things that is important to be an active creator of your life, is to be present and aware of what is around you. Why? Because what is around you can be a direct message about your internal self. If your external world, and the way it moves and flows daily is peaceful (for the most part), inclusive (of yourself and others), creative (sacred expression), your internal self probably feels secure and sound. If your external world moves and flows daily from a place of fear, anger, or isolation, your internal world probably feels like a struggle or energy drain.

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The Law of Creation, with each person as the creator, means that if your world and external self are not in alignment with your higher potential, your internal self is most likely out of alignment with your truth. When or if this happens, look to what is within you that needs to be present and seen. Look to what your truth is, and that which you seek. If you look for answers and solutions outside yourself, your internal self is constantly left to adapt to themes, ideas, and situations that are not in alignment with your core.

5 of Pentacles from the Ostara Tarot

I think this sentiment applies nicely to the 5 of Pentacles, the tarot card of the month. This image shows a girl standing outside of a cathedral, and she is clearly destitute at the moment. Her wrap is in rags, her skin is exposed, and the night is bleak and snowy. With her is a snake, wrapped around her closely. Together they attempt to move and protect themselves from the elements. What she does not realize is that right next to her, shining through the cathedral window, is a stained-glass portrait of a snake wrapped around a tree of five pentacles.

If she would just turn and look at the light shining and the portrait on the stained-glass window, she would realize that she is where she needs to be to heal and be whole again. She would realize she is welcome beyond the doors of her current situation. Only she can make the choice to look and see that world is giving her an opportunity to regroup and grow through her personal truth. She is being given an opportunity by the universe to seek that which is seeking her, and to be part of the oneness of life.

The Law of Creation, since it applies to each person, means that you connecting to your life, forged from your own daily creation, means that when you meet another person, animal, or personified spirit, you are connecting to the oneness of the universe. Your life creation is a creation of energy. This energy is elevated through choice to be part of the wholesome universe as one energetic force.

There are certain things that are obvious outliers for the Law of Creation (in my humble opinion). Freak accidents happen. Bad things happen to good people. Life is often a painful experience. What is not an outlier that you, and each person, create your life through your choices, actions, relationships, intentions, spirit, and so much more. When looking to use the Law of Creation to connect more deeply to the oneness of yourself and beyond, look to the current energy within and around you. Ask yourself if you are happy. Ask yourself if you are okay. Ask the universe to help reveal the opportunity you need to grow, and then look up and choose…….

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Know Your Limits: All About health

One of the biggest blessings in my life has been the blessing of health. I have been blessed with a healthy body and very few major health issues in my 31 years. For this I am incredibly grateful. The worst health issue I have had to deal with was a kidney stone. It was the worst pain of my life. Ever. What was worse was that I knew I needed medical attention, and I was alone. My family was on the other side of town, and I could not wait for them to get to me and then take me to the hospital.

So I drove my car to the nearest Urgent Care that took my insurance in Colorado rush hour traffic. I was in so much pain that I wasn’t sure if I would pass out. I called Grizzly and asked him to just stay on the phone with me. I would tell him the exits I passed so he knew where I was on the road at all times. It was so bad that I almost pulled over and called an ambulance. The only thing that stopped me was the fact that I cannot afford that kind of car ride. I knew if I did call an ambulance I would be looking at an immediate price in the thousands of dollars. I did not have that kind of money, so I drove on.

Other than that horrifying incident, my health has been quite good, which admittedly is something I take for granted. Other than slight allergies or the common cold, the last few years have been incredibly good to me. Even my healing process from getting my wisdom teeth out at the late age of 31 went so well that I was barely swollen, the holes closed quickly, and I wasn’t ever really in bad pain.

However, the last week has been a recall on all that bright, healthy energy that I have taken for granted day after day. It first started with chest pain, nothing major but enough to feel it. I assumed that it was due to poor posture (I slouch a lot. I also hug my shoulders close to my neck a lot, something I didn’t realize I did until I started following Adriene Mishler’s yoga videos on Youtube). I kept going with my lifestyle, living off of hummus and snap peas, yogurt and granola, finding time to cook a few meals during the week. I wasn’t drinking enough water, and stress in many areas of my life has been higher lately.

The pain consisted, but I ignored it. I assumed that my body would take care of it, let me recover without taking any part in the healing process. The pain slowly morphed into a lump in my throat (like when you swallow a pill that doesn’t immediately go down). I kept swallowing and swallowing to see if something was stuck, but the annoying feeling persisted for so long that I knew it wasn’t food or a pill. There was now tightness in the chest, a lump in my throat, and then the worst of it came…..

Yesterday I was sitting at home with Grizzly, looking forward to a slow day of movies and nachos. I was ready to do nothing but relax and enjoy my lazy, Sunday haze. In the late afternoon, I was silently screaming in my body. I was so annoyed and anxious about my health that my body was tensing. I felt jittery and unable to sit still. Worse still, I started to slowly feel like I was losing my breath. I couldn’t get enough air in my lungs, and when I focused on my breathing I kept feeling the grasping strain of trying to get more air in. I ended up calling my mom who had earlier in my life dealt with some similar things. Everything sounded similar to her situation: acid reflux and heartburn.

I did not know that heartburn could feel as serious as it did, and still does. I was almost in shock. Dragging myself up and into pants, Grizzly drove us to the store so I could buy some medication. The whole time I just tried to quiet my mind, but it wasn’t helping and I was starting to get scared. With the medicine purchased, on the way home I was trying again to just calm the fuck down. In my attempts I also broke down in tears. I started quietly apologizing to my body, apologizing for almost a whole lifetime of not taking the adequate time to put better and healthier habits in place. I apologized for making my body carry years of stress. I apologized that I always just assumed that my body would heal me. Now I needed to heal my body.

Today is a better day. I woke up feeling like air was in me. The lump was still there, but I took the OTC medication and started doing some yoga. I have an appointment to see someone for a follow-up, and I started to meal plan healthier meals. What I told myself today while I sat in the shower was that I embrace this path, and my limits. I cannot keep acting like my health is something I can ignore because it has been so good. I cannot keep interrupting symptoms in my body to keep to my daily routines. I need to release an old Ashlie, one that was unwilling to focus on the body and afraid to handle the needs of the body. I am choosing to learn from this experience.

One of the first things I learned was that after my breathing got under control, I almost felt silly for being so afraid. I felt silly, like I had been overly dramatic. I couldn’t believe what I was saying to myself. I was telling myself that I was silly for getting so anxious over the feeling of NOT BEING ABLE TO BREATHE! When did I become so harsh towards myself? When I tell my body to shut up and never have a problem, and if it does then I am stupid for following along? The Daughter of Pentacles is double-earth and all about the body and the sense. The Bat reversed is all about releasing to begin again. I had been ignoring some of these messages within my body for a while, but I cannot avoid them any longer. This process is not really about healing some acid reflux, although I would love for that to go away. More than anything, this is a healing process of learning my limits, and letting my body be loved, completely and with attentive intention.

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Being Honest

9 of Pentacles from the Wild Unknown deck

If I could break down my thoughts this week regarding the 9 of Pentacles reversed, it would be this word: reveal. The word reveal in this context means to take time to reconnect and return to the things we love, or the things we love to do. The beautiful thing about the 9 of Pentacles reversed is that it shows us that we are capable of providing for ourselves the abundance we seek. We are capable of soaking in the sensuality of living in presence to our surroundings. That is not to say that we need to be like this all the time, nor does this card show that we need to relinquish all material possessions.

The 9 of Pentacles reversed is more about intention, and taking to time to find presence with the things around us we love, want, or need. There is a level of true honesty that comes with the 9 of Pentacles reversed. There needs to be honesty about what we have, what we need, and even what we want. There also needs to be honesty about how we reveal this physical abundance to ourselves, and how we use it.

When it comes to being honest about what we have, this means that we need to be able to identify our needs. Like in the picture, the nest may not be as grand as possible, but it is secure and made with love. It holds the precious state of creation without shape. It holds a vibrancy that could make the Sun swoon. Yet, these worldly treasures are so simple. It is about what could be, and how to get there. If the resources used are wrong, those fragile circles would succumb. If it was too grand, that may not have been a wise investment of energy. By naming our needs our needs, we recognize by default our time and space presence. We recognize that through our needs is a space for intention and construction.

We also need to be honest if we are buying, consuming, or using things because we truly cherish them, or simply because they were on sale, easy to get, or fulfilled an idea. We also need to be honest about we want. Do we want something in our home because it is pretty? Do we want to experience something that may be out of budget because we can’t stand the idea of not having the experience? Do we have the means to get that which we want? Again, it is about honesty and intention. If there is something you want, or something you want to do, that’s great. The 9 of Pentacles reversed is simply there to provoke and ask: how and why?

I mentioned in my free newsletter (which you can find under my FREE OFFERINGS TAB) that there is an element of sacrifice and surrender to the 9 of Pentacles reversed. Sacrifice is not a bad thing, but in our consumer-driven society, it is painted as such. Sacrifice here means reconnecting to purpose and priority. That means that perhaps you have something you really want, but you may need to sacrifice that morning cup of coffee, or that night out on the town. If your morning cup of coffee or a night out with friends beats what you want, there is nothing wrong with that.

The 9 of Pentacles reversed is simply asking you to be clear about what and where your values are. If you choose to create a budget so you can afford what you want, then great. Again, it’s simply about clarity. I recognize here that my examples are exceedingly basic. That is because I obviously cannot presume to know what sacrifice will look like to each person. I am therefore using basic examples here to merely make the point. I am also using examples that I know I have confronted recently. I am constantly drawn to buying a tea or snack from the coffee shop at my school. When I realized how much I spending each month, it revealed to me how much I took for granted how far a few dollars go every day.

In my personal opinion, the reason why sacrifice can feel hard is because it is uncomfortable to say no to things. It is uncomfortable to be honest with ourselves and say that we need to do better, make better choices, or find more presence with the things we have. It can be really uncomfortable to place boundaries around a lifestyle we have grown accustomed to. But if that lifestyle is luxury wrapped in debt, we may need to be honest about it. It can feel uncomfortable to say no to things we really want, including experiences, but if they move us out of alignment with our purpose and priorities, it is a needed no.

When thinking about the word reveal, this card really gets to the bones of our structures. Finding presence with ourselves will reveal a lot. Listing where our abundance is, and being honest about sacrifices and boundaries is going to reveal a lot too. It may change some things too. Only you, and each person, knows where those lines lie. No two people will create the same nest, and that is a beautiful thing. No two people will have exactly the same values and priorities. Again, it is all about intention. What you do intend to do this month? What is your purpose? What are your priorities? Start to look at resources you have that be of service to you. Start to be honest about some needed sacrifices that may need to be made. In the end, come back to intention, and you will stay in alignment.

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Wellness Wednesday: Breathing and the King of Pentacles

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(Breathing is the second dimension in John W. Travis’s 12 Dimensional Model of wellness, but I found them through Michael Arloski’s book Wellness Coaching for Lasting Lifestyle Change)

One does not have to look far these days to read about the effects both physically and physiologically when it comes to the breath. The action of breathing and finding breath is now used across a wide variety of modalities to center, ground, and come back to self. Breath is the source. It is the lifeline to all that we do, and all that we have done. All of these new breathing techniques may seem like quackery, but there is something very real in coming back to the breath.

When was the last time you counted your breaths? When was the last time you actively breathed? We are all breathing because breath is life, but when was the last time you acknowledged this force? If it has been a while, don’t worry. It is that way for many people. We get so caught up in the responsibilities and hustle of life that we keep going, knowing that our breathing will take us where we need to be, even if we completely forget about it.

But this simple act of connecting down into the breath does not have to be surrounded by the ideal setting of quiet reflection on a grassy hill. We can connect to breath anywhere. I like to connect to my breath while driving. I don’t need to close my eyes, and I don’t need to be completely serene. In fact, driving to school in morning traffic is probably the last place where we might expect to connect to breath, but I have found that is one the places where I need it most.

Feelings and emotions take about 90 seconds to process. That means that for 90 seconds, our physiology is responding to the waves of physical output from emotional input. In these 90 seconds, if we can allow ourselves to honor, hold, and learn about what is triggering us, it usually will drift away without physical consequences.

This is why I love connecting to my breath while I am driving. Anyone who drives in rush hour traffic can probably speak to the collective energy. Everyone is in a rush. Everyone needs to be somewhere. I often feel like there is a cloud of negativity while I drive. Someone is cutting someone off. Someone is being a jerk. Someone is getting pissed off, and people try to vocalize the cause and effect of right and wrong with their vehicle. Obviously this is not the place. It is dangerous and stupid, but road rage is a real thing.

But I ask: what would happen if instead of getting furious at the person who cut us off, we counted to 90? What if we used that 90 second time-frame to recognize we are angry and feel wronged, instead of acting out our feelings? This is not easy. No one is perfect at this, but it has become something of positive importance to me. By using those triggers to connect into my breath instead of lashing out I go deeper into myself, and spare myself from negative energies in trying to scrap with someone else.

Breath is such a powerful force. It can shape and mold how we deal with the hardest of situations. It is the sound we long to hear from just-born babies. It is the echo that we will slowly, but continuously put out there. Our breath is ours, and even when someone has wronged us, even when the unthinkable happens, we have our breath. Breath can help us cope through painful situations, and keep us centered as we attain victory. The King of Pentacles is a perfect example of of physical recognition and physiological mastery. Often the King of Pentacles is associated with ample wealth, but I would argue that having breath at all is more ample wealth that any material thing.

This idea has been surfacing for years, and now it is everywhere. From yoga to public speaking to coping mechanisms, breathing is becoming a real ally for us all. It grounds us down to the source, but expands our consciousness to the energies around us. The King of Pentacles is expansive in his physical abilities, and his physical kingdom. He rules over more than just his body, but it starts with him. The King of Pentacles can always find control over some physical dominion because he has learned how to control the inputs and outputs of life. We don’t have to be the King of Pentacles to start this process. Just start to acknowledge the breath. Count to 30-60-90, and breathe.

(Tarot card shown is from the Ostara Tarot)

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Saturday Reflections: Scorpion and the 3 of Pentacles

Saturday 3.17.2018

“I saw the sun disappear / into mist as it reached / the horizon. And an egret / airborne, circling all / this time” ~ Running by Leslie Ullman

I don’t know about you, but much of my week is spent doing so many things, that I hardly get the time to take a look inward, to reflect on needed remnants from my inner low-tide. If I do get the time, I am hardly useful, except to remind my cats with a good scratch under the chin that they are why I do what I do. The weekends however, are when that silent wind sings out strong in me and I can say the words, much like singing to a forgotten, but beloved song.

I chose two cards to be the catalyst towards my introspection. The cards are the Scorpion and the 3 of Pentacles. One of the first things I look for in cards drawn is comparisons, or differences. The first thing I see in these cards is the difference in elements. The Scorpion card resembles the fire element. Pentacles are of the earth. In the real world, fire and earth do not mix. My stomping ground (Colorado) is constantly besieged with fire warnings in the summer because it is so dry. But fire does fertilize the soil, churns dormant seeds to sprout with the help of sun-fire and needed rain. This tells me that much of the energy will be a trial of fire. New growth can come, but it requires a sacrifice.

The Scorpion is the embodiment of the free-spirit. When this card is pulled it is a reminder to walk our path but hold some defenses. Not all those will admire the strength to walk your line, to live accordingly to your surroundings and spirit. The ones that do admire and hold to this are passionate in their own ways. They see the strength in individuality because they also walk their own fire. A scorpion can live in almost desolate climates, they can survive without food for periods of time, only as long as they have water. As long you have that which nourishes your source, you can survive.

However, the spirit of the Scorpion is one that also brings baggage. Scorpion souls carry the venom of the past, the pain of toxic situations and circumstances. In order to stand in our fire, we must only use that baggage when needed. We must use negative feelings with the attempt to try to heal, and forgive. Is there anything you are carrying that is no longer serving you? How could you turn this into growth? How can you forgive even those words were never mentioned by someone? This is not easy. I know I still struggle with this sometimes. I look to the past to learn, but in true honesty, I am looking to the past because I haven’t found my own healing. This is human. If you can relate, know that you are not alone. And if all I can do here with my business and these words is to state that I believe in you wolf-darling, then I can go to bed fulfilled.

The act of forgiveness and skillfully growing bleeds beautifully into the meaning of the 3 of Pentacles. The 3 of Pentacles brings many things to my mind. One is that of collaboration. The three pentacles from the rudimentary shape of something majestic. Another is the act of starting in different places, but all paths lead to a similar destination. Another is knowing which energy you can honestly give at that point in time. There are times where we do not have to hold the whole spectrum of color. We just have to put our energy out there in a way that contributes to the whole spectrum.

Find your inner free-spirit by surrounding yourself with those who will help bring out the positive or best in you. Become engaged with anything that helps you stand in your fire truthfully. For me, this is often found by just being in my home. When I am home I am reminded of where my growth has gotten me. I try to relieve the baggage by standing naked, surrounding myself with my words of love for my family and my creations. We cannot always start or hold the same energy as the day previously, but we can be honest and say that this is what we have to give today. We cannot retell the past. It is what it is. And even if we cannot start where we wish we could, we can be honest and say that. We do not have to reinvent the wheel of all our situations because of the baggage we carry. But we can be honest, walk our path, and move towards growth.

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Cards of the week: 8 of Pentacles and the Wild Huntress

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“Besides, the world isn’t split into good people and death eaters. We’ve got both light and dark inside us.” ~ Sirius Black

Now that we have taken a moment to look inward to gaze at the context of our guides, and how they gently shaped our forms with metaphors that felt like fingers, it is time to look at what we are invested in, and what needs our attention. There is a duality in each of us. We carry both light and shadow. In order to fully accomplish any task set before us, to truly meet anything with integrity, we must first become wholesome in our extremes.

The 8 of Pentacles is all about our skills, and how we can effectively finesse something from the bare bones of raw needs to nourish and sustain ourselves. Each of us weaves our own lives. Our web would not function if we placed all of our attention to one side, and neglected other. It would fail to nourish us, fail to sustain ourselves against the threats of others. The web we weave defines our survival. We can only be authentically whole. If we dry ourselves of desire or conscious, we will always be weaker, unable to strengthen our structures. That is where the Wild Huntress comes in.

She contains both light and purity. She fights for those who need it; she stands up to the ones who would wreck and ruin the magic of many. But this comes at a price. To effectively create this change, she must step into the shadows. She must think and feel as a hunter in order to protect the hunted. She may be ostracized by those who only see the darkness, who refuse to understand its purpose. But in her organic wholeness, she is free. She is unchained by others who expect her to stay in line. As a trailblazer in the shadows, she makes more room for the light.

The 8 of Pentacles and the Wild Huntress both speak to finesse and entirety. The little details, the small tracks, and traces of skill are what allow the completion of ourselves. When we fine-tune both our shadows and our light, we can achieve great things. We are not one without the other. We cannot be only light or only shadow. To be that way would unhinge us, send us into the preserve as nothing more than prey. To be only light would indicate conformity. To be only shadows would be self-serving. But, a combination between the two would let us be free to live well and to not feel guilty when we need to sever ties with what is no longer serving us.

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Card of the week: Mother of Pentacles

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“Mother, maybe you are a night house /  whose orange- yellow light can cheer; / whose blankness, chill. / I want to ring the bell / but who will I wake? Who / will appear at your door?” ~ The Living Portrait Kathryn T.S. Bass

There was a rebirth last week, a flame that lightly showed the skeleton of a dark room. That energy requires a lot of output. As we step into a place that is greater and more powerful, it can make us vulnerable and even weaker at times. It is important to remember that any output obviously needs healthy input in order to stay in equilibrium.

We cannot serve anyone if the stitches to our subconscious and unconscious fray and pull our outer layers. This is where the Mother of Pentacles comes in. She is the rhythm, the vibration, that only we can feel inside ourselves. She is the one who will tap at the window of our exterior to tell us that rain is coming, and we need to go indoors.

As we have taken on a role of soldier, either partially or completely, we need to replenish ourselves. Mediation and spiritual growth are needed, but those are not the only tools we can use to achieve a greater version of ourselves tomorrow. Our Mother of Pentacles is the tangible caregiver that we act on to provide comfort for ourselves. She is the one that makes us reach for the music, the art, the poetry, the funny movie, anything to physically bring us back from the exhausting cycle of being.

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For me, my main healer is my morning cup of coffee. When I sit still and let the morning chill gently seize my stupor, I find a small opening of myself. This is the part of me that is nothing and everything all at once. I am not creating. I am not planning. I am not moving. I am simply drinking my coffee and letting myself be still. This is the time where I have my epiphanies, where I latch on to my fading dreams, and imagine a spectrum of possibilities.

She is also the one that brings out the need in us to take care of others. Many times the best physical healing we can do is to encourage, listen, and support other people. This card, more than most, speaks to the tangible world of connectivity. We pay ourselves a service by being the helper, not always the leader.

 

 

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Card of the Week: Reversed 9 of Pentacles

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Running, end, earth, swimming, edge, sea, laughing, under, starry sky
This world was meant for me.
Don’t bury me, carry me.
I wish I was a nomad, an Indian, or a saint.
The edge of death would disappear, leave me nothing to taint.
I wish I was a nomad, an Indian, or a saint.
Give me walking shoes, feathered arms, and a key to heaven’s gate.
This world falls on me with hopes of immortality
Everywhere I turn all the beauty just keeps shaking me. ~Indigo Girls **World Falls**

Good evening, and happy new year! The beginning of the new year can bring many shifts, both pleasing and troubling. I find the new year to bring a huge void of energy. I find myself in a stupor for a few days, feeling more tired than liberated.

The first card to focus on this week is the reversed 9 of Pentacles.  Pentacles focus on materials, finances, and the physical realm. In the reversed position, this card speaks to over-indulgence or neglect in these, and other, areas. Working hard and money in the bank are necessities, but do not let the dollar amounts override your inner voice.

I chose the above quote because I feel this speaks to the need to focus on now what we have, but what we can do with it. Money is a blessing, and is needed here and now, but if overworked and unable to focus on that which we love, what good is it? If the inner- voice is saying to back away, to calm down, to unfold, no amount of money can change that if we don’t listen.

Prosperity is a word I have seen in numerous places lately. For a new year, prosperity brings a sense of change. Prosperity is so many things, and humans are so complex. Let’s find the many reasons that rings this word true. Do not let the burden you carry this year be the distance between your life and the things you love. Be mindful of what you need, and how you can achieve it.

For this week, the energy should shift into the deeper, and the sub-conscious. The materials possessions will be there, and they are precious in their own way, but do they carry us? Our material world and indulgence will not be the road where we find ourselves. Do not let a façade carve you.

Some further tips:

Color: Indigo and lavender

Stone: Garnet, Amber

Scents: Bayberry

Animal Spirit: