The monthly cards for January are here: The Lovers and the Lady Alfreda (Justice will Prevail). We dive deep into these cards on the Tea and Tombstones podcast, exploring the themes of sacred reciprocity, underworld initiation, magickal and natural law, karmic residue, and the use of wise counsel to guide and instruct our choices and values.
We also ask and explore what it means to look at these themes when they are not in vacuum. For instance, how would justice come forward for you right now? How different would it look as opposed to coming forward a year ago? Five years ago?
The Lovers is all about the return, sacred reclaiming and sacred deepening of the wisdom we have gained from the Hierophant. This deepening, awakening, reclaiming allows us to move towards the Chariot, engaging in that which is our calling, that which is ours to behold.
Lady Alfreda is the goddess of wise counsel based on karmic initiations. Everything impacts everything, and when we allow the wisdom of all that has come before to be a teacher, we can join the archetypal history of remembering. You can find the podcast on Itunes, Stitcher, Spotify, Google Podcasts, and more.
Let me know how these cards come forward for you. XOXO
The monthly cards for October are Judgment and Thanatos, perfect cards for this month, and this time. These cards are also both often misunderstood, and I hope to shed some light on how these cards can be beneficial and beautiful.
Judgement, at its core, is about awakening your sacred service to your higher calling. It is about finding and channeling your freedom from the bondage of anything that holds you down. In the light, Judgement opens us to deeper levels of sensation, allowing interpretation and communication between the self, the spirit, the environment, and others to deepen and become more clear.
Judgement is not merely about rebirth. Rebirth is a beautiful thing, and it is needed on our Fool’s journey, however; Judgement is about recognizing that as we move through the last phases of this cycle we recognize that we cannot carry things that do not serve us. This means that Judgment can also bring about challenge or obstacle, because we are going to have to leave something behind. Judgement is the card that comes after the Sun, the Moon, and the Star. This indicates that as we move forward, we are moving forward with clarity and awakening from both consciousness raising, reflection, and stillness.
Thanatos is the God, or sometimes referred to as the Spirit, of Death. His presence is not about violence or pain. The space that Thanatos holds is simply the clock, or thread, of our lives. There is an end, and when that end comes Thanatos comes and gently takes our spirit to the Underworld. The legend states that he was born as a shard broken from the body of the Goddess of Night, Nyx. His brother, Hypnos is the God of Sleep.
The key message with Thanatos is that his presence is constant, even if, at times it is metaphorical. Death is the counterweight to life. It gives it meaning and purpose. Death motivates us to live, but it also brings intense grief, pain, and loss. Those who are marked by death are never the same. They have come close to the Underworld, to the last, and ultimate threshold.
There is a sweeping similarity with both of these cards, and that is loss. Judgement may not mean loss in the sense of Death, just like Thanatos may not represent a physical death. They both speak to losing and releasing something that has come a long way with us, and given us breadth, has elevated our journey to this moment. They also both speak to transcending and moving past this present moment, although their movement moves in opposite directions.
Judgement takes us closer to the divine, to higher awareness or knowledge, and into forgiveness, love, compassion, and clarity. Thanatos takes us to the Underworld, to the drastic, to the forced or willing release. Thanatos strips us bare. When his energy comes we relinquish power and choice and action. There is no other way. There is only an end that leaves the void for something new. Judgement clothes us in possibility, in new purpose, in a new cycle.
In working with these cards for this month, look to what you are being asked, or forced, to release. Look to what is within a death cycle around you. Tend to your physical body during this process, because your body is the container for all this moving and releasing. It is bound to feel it in some way. For October, see where you are being called to rise in your presence, and also where you are being asked to relinquish presence.
For me, Thanatos and Judgement have greatly shaped some decisions that I have needed to make in terms of presence. They were asking me to be honest, and accept the death cycles where they were stirring in me. Because of that, I have decided to stop doing the monthly zines. I will still be pulling monthly cards, but the zines were starting to take more out of me than they were giving. It was time to release space so that I could more fully focus on the podcast, and courses that I want to create as part of my spiritual council sessions.
I hope that as you embody this card, you find new or reclaimed purpose. I hope your emotions move like a river towards an endless ocean. I hope you have ease and comfort where needed. These cards are quite heavy, so again, take special care to nourish the body with whole foods, medicinal herbs (if you use them), sleep, and support. I was surprised at first how fitting these cards where for the times and month that we are in, but now, I believe and know there is a purpose for their messages. Much love! XOXO
I wanted to do and write something a little bit differently today. More specifically, my intention is to show a little bit of my process behind certain aspects of my business. Many, if not most, tarot readers charge based on time spent for the reading. There is nothing wrong with this, but I personally have never liked to charge that way. A big reason why is because of my first reading as the client, not the reader.
I went to see a tarot reader long before I knew how to read tarot. To be fair, I had not done my research into the type or reading, or reader, I wanted. I simply had some cash and showed up at a store in Denver. I also had not taken the time to consider what I wanted, and more importantly needed, from my reading. What was the underlying purpose? What would I do with the information given to me? How could I be vulnerable and hear both the good and bad the cards may bring forth? I asked myself none of these question. (I would like to spend a whole post on the etiquette between reader and client, but I digress….)
So I show up at a store, cash in hand, ready for my reading. I asked if anyone was available to read for me. A woman was, and although I do not expect or want an overly fluffy or lovey-dovey reader (that is not my style), this woman was cold and not very friendly. We went to a section of the store, that was separated by nothing more than a divider. This made my walls go up. I didn’t know exactly what I wanted or needed from my reader, but I knew I didn’t want every customer walking by to overhear what I considered, and still do, a sacred conversation.
I told her a little bit about what was going on with me, and she started to pull the cards. And she kept pulling… and pulling…. and pulling. She must have pulled over thirty cards from her deck. I say this not because I question or despise the way another reader works with her cards. (I also want to make it clear that many, if not most readers do not read this way. They are inviting, informative, and value the shared energetic experience.) I did not feel like this reader valued my presence. I say this because the majority of the reading was spent shuffling and looking and shuffling and looking. I could not tell you a single card that was pulled because she didn’t talk very much. The last five minutes of a fifteen-minute reading was spent with her asking a few more questions, and then giving some small suggestions, and that was it.
Those fifteen minutes cost me $20.00, and although I recognize that is not the most expensive reading ever, it was still a lot for me at that time financially. I left feeling overwhelmed, annoyed, and more confused than before. I would have preferred it if she had pulled one card for me and had deeply gone into the meaning of that card, and how it could relate to me and my situation. As a reader, I don’t not believe more is more when it comes to number of cards. As a client, I know it’s not. A couple of years later, when I started developing my website, writing spreads, and determining my prices, I knew that I didn’t want to make anyone as my blessed client feel like they had been overcharged and under-served.
But, I wrestled with the way to price my services and my spreads. What was fair to the clients, but still honored and valued the heart and soul I put into my work? I finally decided that I wanted to charge based on cards that I pulled. This means that my one-card readings (still thorough and written with love) are not charged the same way that my five-card reading does. Here are some of the main reasons I decided to charge this way (I feel the need to preface here that this is what works for me and the way I operate as a tarot reader. I am not saying that others who price or charge differently than me are doing it wrong. Different strokes for different folks):
1.) I don’t like being rushed for / by time and numbers: By removing the constraint of time, I personally feel more free to spend as much time as needed going into the messages that I download from each card. By removing the layer of time from my readings, I feel less confined by time.
2.) Discussing the cards from intuition: I could take one hour to discuss one card if my intuition keeps downloading meaningful content. I could take less time with more cards. With no time limit, I feel able to discuss each download clearly and without rush.
3.) Gives you financial options: Because my spreads are based upon the amount of cards I pull, I have many different spread options available on my website. You can choose the spread that works for you and for your budget. As mentioned, I have been in the place where $20.00 was my grocery limit for the week. I believe tarot is medicine, but I also believe it shouldn’t put you in the red. No matter the spread you choose, you will get my soulful intention to provide the best tarot reading I can.
4.) Telecommute makes time commitment harder: Because I do readings exclusively out of my home right now, time commitment to readings is not so black and white. Often, during a reading I pull the cards, write down initial notes by hand, and then take some time (outside, in meditation, or by journaling) to really let my intuition start downloading. It doesn’t always get channeled so immediately. So, I don’t have to start a timer or take note when I started or stopped. This again makes me feel less pressured by time, and more able to just read the cards and write.
5.) Quality over quantity: More cards does not mean a better reading. More time does not mean a better reading. Say it with me: more does not mean better. As I said in my story above, I would have preferred a $20.00 with only one or two cards, as opposed to a reading that had half the deck, and little to no detailed insight from particular cards. One card can really anchor you into clarification, or speak to your needed questions. Throwing down card after card after card may not always provide the most insight.
Hopefully, this provides some clarity to the way my pricing is set on my website. If you have any questions, or if you have a certain price point but don’t see a spread that fully covers your needs, no worries, shoot me an email at email@example.com and we can get a spread that fits your price point and your needs. Thanks for reading. Much love to you!
As a tarot reader and tarot student, I find that I gain more insight from books and articles that have nothing to do with tarot knowledge. Sometimes the connection to completely random characters, or different points in time is what makes the understanding of a card stick. I want to share some insight I gained about the Tower from a beautiful book that I am reading right now.
Right now I am reading Anam Cara: A Book of Celtic Wisdom by John O’ Donohue. This book is a stunning read, and has a lot of insight towards other cards, but one particular passage really stuck out and gave me a deeper understanding of the Tower as teacher:
Often all the possessions we have, the work we do, the beliefs we hold, are manic attempts to fill this opening, but they never stay in place. They always slip, and we are left more vulnerable and exposed than before. A time comes when you know that you can no longer wallpaper this void. Until you really listen to the call of this void, you will remain an inner fugitive, driven from refuge to refuge, always on the run with no place to call home. (O’ Donohue 101)
When I read this passage, I felt like I had the greatest clarity over this card. I mention in my March Newsletter that I don’t read the Tower as this predictive card of bad luck or omens. Why? Because I think that the Tower is here to show something that may be more troubling, but it is perhaps one of the greatest lessons to learn. The passage above is making a reference to understanding the psyche, and how interconnection to home, to landscape, and to nature are ultimately the best healers.
When we engage in small earthly wonders, or even just engaging in the quiet space where our inner self stirs, we are creating a wholesome understanding of who we are and what gifts we have. When we seek outside of ourselves to fill the void of connection, we will always be left searching. The answers are inside of us, but we are often to scared to turn over those rocks and search of the mysteries of ourselves.
The Tower comes to us when we have strayed far from ourselves, and when we have placed vigorous meaning in possessions and situations that are outside of us. These may feed our ego, but they shrink our souls. They rest on the surface like oil, but they make the metaphorical water undrinkable regardless. When we routinely learned how to please the ego, we also learn how to silence the starving soul.
So, with the Tower being our monthly card, take time this month to shed the possessions and choices and people and places that are egocentric. These fill the ego with meaning, but have nothing to offer in terms of deep connection. This can be unpleasant, so don’t forget to feel through this process and this month with the Sea Serpent, keeper of the Second Chakra. Find intimacy, play, pleasures, and creativity. Let these precious spaces help handle the Tower energy.
If you would like to book a reading with me, click on my OFFERINGS tab to see what spreads are currently available. If you would like to read more into my messages from the Tower and the Sea Serpent, you can download my free newsletter under the FREE OFFERINGS tab. I hope this is helpful for you!
My ebook is now officially available for purchase of $3.99. The purpose of this little manuscript is to open up the dialog on different topics, and go deeper into focus. Each topic opens up something important for 2019, and each topic has some sort of activity or action to-do that encourages integration of that focus.
It can be found in the Offerings section of my website. I am so excited that this project has finally come to this point, and I hope it will provide positivity for you. Much love and stay wild dear ones!
We now look at the two Justice cards from the two decks I own: The Wild Unknown and the Ostara Tarot. These two decks are very different in style and use of symbolism. In these comparisons, I look to what each image is representing, and how they speak to me in terms of applicable use during a reading. I aim to see the similarities and differences they carry, and how both have a lesson to teach us.
There are some images that will speak to me, or perhaps to you, more. There may even be a favorite. That is okay. They are both still valuable in terms of understanding the deeper connections to be had in applying these cards in real-life scenarios. Let’s jump in. Please remember that these are my interpretations. You may see things differently, which is perfectly fine.
Going from left to right, we have Justice from the Wild Unknown. There are two cats, one black and one white, facing forward with their tails intertwined. Between them is a diamond cut down the middle, representing the color of the other. Above them, a sword points downward, almost touching the diamond. The background has straight lines that come from every corner to the middle.
The two cats represent opposing contrasts, the same outlines, physical being, or metaphor can carry both the light and the dark. There is also an interpretation of how beliefs can be made from simple variations. White is purity. Black is bad luck. These beliefs are not based in anything other than superstition, and superstition does a disservice to actual reality.
The diamond further emphasizes this point. If the color of these cats was so accurate in representation, why does the diamond reflect the color of the other? I believe that this shows that there is no such thing as absolute balance. We carry both the light and the dark within us. We have the options of inflicting either love or fear in all actions and choices. What is important is how we make those choices. How can we, as imbalanced beings, create balance and change? How can we achieve the greater good when we carry the weight of baggage of both energies?
I think this answer lies in the sword. A sword is mute unless wielded. We can stay silent to the things that we find unsettling, disturbing even. We can refuse to create action, hoping instead that the divinity and supreme karma of nature will even the score, but as we all have seen, that is not always the case. We must pick up our sword, and be a warrior for truth, including our own. We must recognize that Justice is not a prophecy. It is a fight for greater understanding and possibility of being in service to all.
Moving to the right card, we have a woman blindfolded. This is a traditional representation of Justice, as it should be blind. She is human in every way, except for the long wing on her right arm. She carries the scales, weighing both a heart and a feather. She stands in an exotic land with trees and mountains behind her. This interpretation is both more on the nose, and more obscure.
First thing that is noticeable is her one wing. This in no way can a representation of balance. She cannot fly with one wing, and she has lost the use of her other arm. I think that this further drives the point home that Justice is not so simply to attain. She could be representing the balance between the human form and wild nature, but in this circumstance it seems to be more crippling. Which I think is the point. We have the need of both our modern human form, and a need for the wild drive in us. We are messy creatures, seeking the authenticity of our wild selves, but we also need the rule of law to guide us.
The scales and her blindfold are seen often. The scales are meant to represent how we weigh cause and consequence, right and wrong. Here we have a heart and a feather, and they seem to be the same weight. How so? Is the heart light because of a choice to be unburdened by judgement and ridicule, or is it so because it has never experienced the weight of the world? The feather is going to light, so how do feathers carry the biggest birds? This may show that what is right for one is not for another, but Justice supposed to indiscriminate, able to fit all? Not necessarily. Justice for one may be seen as a loss for another. Justice is not so easy to identify. Just take a look around to see how much discourse is being spent on what is truth.
What is true is that actions have consequences. The land she is surrounded by is beautiful, lush, full of resources. If we wanted to claim and harness this land for profit or self-service, we would harm and hinder growth. But if we work with the land, if we work with what is provided, we can use what we need without stripping or depleting the needs of communal enterprise.
Based on both cards, I would say that the Wild Unknown Justice speaks more directly to me. It makes a more lasting impression on how I work with the card meaning. That is not to say that the Ostara Tarot Justice is one I don’t like. I actually really like this card, and it presents a lot of things to go deeper on. I personally do not like analogy of Justice as a blindfolded woman. I understand the reference, but I think in order to engage and make decisions about this world, for this world, we need to have our eyes open to highlights and the horrors. We need to see how things are to decide how we want them to be.
**I hope you will comment and let me know what you think of these, or your own cards. This card is a hard one, but it so applicable right now. Much love Wolflings!
Wolflings, let us deep dive now into the 9 of Cups (I will be discussing the Bear card at a later time). This card is often considered the “wish” card, implying that when this card shows up in a spread the things we wish for will come to pass. I think this notion is a little overindulged personally, and I think there are other aspects of this card that are much more potent than a wish. Wishes, dreams, and hopes are incredibly powerful, and I do not wish to dumb these needed aspects of life down. But I think that when it comes to this card, the message is more accessible in achieving the wishes of emotional integrity, and following the dreams of living in emotional wellness.
So let us go in deeper within the boundaries of this card…..
From the deck the Wild Unknown we see 9 cups arranged, almost in the way we would see at a dinner table or gathering. A crescent moon is found at the top, completely the circle. This shows that although the arrangement is almost complete, there is still room for collective creativity and growth that stems from personal possibility and accountability.
One of the biggest things I see with this card is the effect of community, strength in numbers, or support system. No one in this world makes their life ring without having the chorus of others. We all need someone or more to help us achieve what we wish. We need to be part of the table, the conversation, the collective integrity of whole growth. When we have those who are loyal, who help us lead our best and whole selves, we find comfort, security, or safety.
This card also shows that it is never to late to find emotional wellness. Even when the cards are stacked against us. Even when we face loss, grief, or trauma. When we let the spectrum of light, uplifting emotions down to deep, troubling emotions flow and open our hearts, we can actually find more emotional wisdom to become wholesome and honest. This is also greatly served by having a support system who will nourish and walk by our sides.
When we become conscious of our deep wishes and dreams, we can become more poised and capable of finding gratitude. If our deep wish is to connect with lost friend, a family member who we haven’t spoken to, or to achieve a great and emotionally fulfilling success, we tap into what we have to help us, and what we potentially still need. When we are honest that what we want isn’t always in our higher self-interest we can go deeper into what would help our self-interest in the most effective way.
One thing that I see with this card is the combined and mutual efforts between self and the universe. When we send out our best wishes, coupled with the gratitude of what we have here and now, the Universe receives that information, but the Universe is not responsible for us. We are responsible for ourselves, and the Universe. That does not mean that Universe does not hear us. She hears everything in our hearts, but we must take the initiative and start to enact the changes that we wish to see. We must start the process of attainment within our own ways.
When we follow our heart minds, and what they are really asking, we can unfold new possibilities. We can create a new emotional chapter, one that is more honest about our personal and communal evolutions. We can seek greater things. We can feel the conviction of new or awoken integrity to heart truth. These are medicines that will keep when the other things in the world are a struggle. When we can look to the hardships in life, and see them as a way to prosper and grow in a new way, we open the new chapter with much strength and intelligence.
**This is one of my favorite cards, and a beautiful look into the month of September, and how we can achieve what we desire emotionally. Please let me know what you think of this card. Stay wild wolflings!
We often hear that saying “Gratitude is attitude,” and we know the connotation. When we are grateful, it shapes our attitude. When we recognize what we have, what is working for us, or what is a true blessing in our lives we restructure our foundation. We become a little more untouchable to the horrors of the world because we don’t lose sight of what we have.
This all sounds well and good, but it is not an easy practice. When we are told repeatedly that we should just be happy, that our suffering is trite because someone out there is worse off, this diminishes our emotional barometer. Just because someone out there is worse off doesn’t mean that your emotions or your circumstance are meaningless.
What should be spoken more is finding the balance between the two. We need to be able to express our emotions, and take time to sit in our darkness. Forgiveness and release are great emotional healers, but they need to come when called. Each one of us decides when that day comes. We need to be able to be angry, sad, frustrated (place your emotion here), but it must be kept in perspective.
We need to take time to recognize the good, the blessings, the light that has been shining us. One easy way to do that is take time to write everyday in a gratitude journal. These writings do not have to be paragraphs or pages. They can be a few sentences. They can be short and sweet, and they can be anything.
The other night I was grateful for a TV show. This morning I was grateful for coffee. Right now I am grateful you are reading this. You have no idea how much it means to me that you are taking the time to digest my words, these words that I pray find and serve you well. Take a few minutes each day to recognize the blessings you have. These tiny little blurbs will be of service. They are like little fortune cookies that you wrote for yourself.
Try starting a few times a week. Try these prompts that I have listed below. Gratitude can be found in anything because everything is sacred. Enjoy Wolflings!
What in the natural world are you grateful for?
What was something you went through that felt excruciating, but now you are grateful it happened?
What is a material object you are grateful for?
What is something small/ insignificant that you are grateful for?
One of the things that I love most about tarot cards is the layers of relativity. There is so much to unpack with each picture and message that it is no wonder that those who learn tarot are often lifelong students. I am always looking for ways to go deeper into the cards, because that is how the meaning of each card manifests. When it takes the physical form of numerous situations in our lives is when it becomes more than just one interpretation.
To be honest, I am not sure how I want to tackle each month. There is so much that I want to discuss with each card. Scents, flowers, people, fictional characters, actions, cause and consequence, light and shadow. All of these could come forth in Tarot card of the month. There could be relevant articles, pictures, art, movies, or unknown connections that I have yet to see. What I do know is that this is the exciting part of tarot. I have always loved to see how tarot cards reveal themselves each day.
For the month of August, the 2 of Swords will be a major focus card. Others will be pulled, discussed, and shared, but I am being called by my guides to really dig deep right now. Maybe it is just a backlash from such an exhausting summer school semester that I feel detached in my own way from the cards. Maybe it is just a new revelation that came in the subconscious river up the cord and into the mind. Whatever the source, I am being called to go deeper into the cards, to really unpack them, and to go slow.
I hope you will join me, and let me know how the 2 of Swords surfaces for you over the next month. My hope is to post something everyday on at least one of my platforms: Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, or here. My hope for this is to keep the flow of the card moving and growing, so that every day reveals another breadcrumb on this trail. Also, please understand that this is not the only way to learn the cards. In fact, this is not how I initially learned. I pulled all the cards that I could all the time. I was so intensely invested in learning and discovering each card that I may have missed some messages that were coming from an individual archetype.
This isn’t a huge project, but it is a endeavor that I am finally realizing in manifestation. I would love to hear how the 2 of Swords comes around in your life. Stay wild wolflings!