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Fairmount Cemetery

I know this post is long overdue. I apologize for not getting these pictures up earlier. As you may have guessed by now, if you have read some earlier posts, I love cemeteries. I find them beautiful, peaceful, a place of that buzzes with the electricity of memory.

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Fairmount Cemetery is the second oldest cemetery in the area. The oldest goes to Riverside Cemetery. The cemetery is 280 acres, and has thousands of trees. There are famous people who lay beneath their final tombstones. There are bird, people biking, chapels, and growth. So much growth. More information about this historic cemetery is here

 

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Coming here for the first time, I felt that buzzing I described. There are so many stories here. There are so many small histories that create the collective timeline. I loved it here. The sculptures and stones, so finite in their lines, were soft like skin.

 

 

These are the cemeteries that show beauty in loss, beauty in something unknown, perhaps even misunderstood. I feel that in some ways, I diminish the precious sense of this place by even trying to find words to use. If you are ever in the Denver area, and you like cemeteries, or just quiet walks to recuperate from the insane beast of living, come here. I will be back.

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Card of the week: Mother of Pentacles

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“Mother, maybe you are a night house /  whose orange- yellow light can cheer; / whose blankness, chill. / I want to ring the bell / but who will I wake? Who / will appear at your door?” ~ The Living Portrait Kathryn T.S. Bass

There was a rebirth last week, a flame that lightly showed the skeleton of a dark room. That energy requires a lot of output. As we step into a place that is greater and more powerful, it can make us vulnerable and even weaker at times. It is important to remember that any output obviously needs healthy input in order to stay in equilibrium.

We cannot serve anyone if the stitches to our subconscious and unconscious fray and pull our outer layers. This is where the Mother of Pentacles comes in. She is the rhythm, the vibration, that only we can feel inside ourselves. She is the one who will tap at the window of our exterior to tell us that rain is coming, and we need to go indoors.

As we have taken on a role of soldier, either partially or completely, we need to replenish ourselves. Mediation and spiritual growth are needed, but those are not the only tools we can use to achieve a greater version of ourselves tomorrow. Our Mother of Pentacles is the tangible caregiver that we act on to provide comfort for ourselves. She is the one that makes us reach for the music, the art, the poetry, the funny movie, anything to physically bring us back from the exhausting cycle of being.

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For me, my main healer is my morning cup of coffee. When I sit still and let the morning chill gently seize my stupor, I find a small opening of myself. This is the part of me that is nothing and everything all at once. I am not creating. I am not planning. I am not moving. I am simply drinking my coffee and letting myself be still. This is the time where I have my epiphanies, where I latch on to my fading dreams, and imagine a spectrum of possibilities.

She is also the one that brings out the need in us to take care of others. Many times the best physical healing we can do is to encourage, listen, and support other people. This card, more than most, speaks to the tangible world of connectivity. We pay ourselves a service by being the helper, not always the leader.

 

 

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Card of the week: Judgement

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“For mankind are one in spirit, and in instinct bears along,
Round the earth’s electric circle, the swift flash of right and wrong;” ~ James Russel Lowell

 

There is something serene about absolving ourselves from aspects or people that do not fit anymore. To let there be a stillness as we move away from an old  shape into a new set of skin. Last week there was a victory, small or big, that shows our fortitude. We were called upon the last couple of weeks to sit and mold our intentions out of raw energy.

This week beseeches us to take these reflections farther. To step back from our wins and assess them with scrutiny and diligence. The system, other people, and circumstances may have flaws. So do we, but if we consistently keep in mind a deeper understanding of what our unique calling is, we come from a place of balance.

Judgement calls on us to self- preserve in some way. We cannot pretend that everything is always going to be okay, or that we can always have what we think we need. Sacrifice is hard. It is supposed to be hard. But if we take that inner voice from the previous weeks, and use that as our compass, our sacrifices will be less, or at least less superfluous. Not every battle is a win, but every victory is a victory.

Now that we are moving past finding and listening to our intuition, this is the week to test and integrate our epiphanies and intentions into our daily lives. Meditating on our intuition can be therapeutic, even healing. But if it is not tested and strengthened in reality it will always just be an inner voice.

For this week, look at your processes, and the transformations you are creating each day. This is a direct reflection to the mindful, physical, and spiritual currents of ourselves. This what affects others around us. This is what we harvest from the unseen darkness. There is new territory, new groupings, and new epiphanies. Somewhere a bell is ringing, we only need to lift our head and listen.

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**Thank you so much for reading. Please respond with any comments or questions, or ways that Judgement has served you. If you would like a tarot reading, please email me at teaandtombstones@gmail.com

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Card of the week: 6 of Wands

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“Our share of night to bear,
Our share of morning,
Our blank in bliss to fill,
Our blank in scorning.
Here a star, and there a star,
Some lose their way.
Here a mist, and there a mist
Afterwards ~ day!” Emily Dickinson II

The world did not stop for us to tune into our High Priestess last week. Many public and, I am assuming, personal entanglements could have occurred for each of us between these two Mondays. Nor will the world stop. That does not mean the energy investing into the intuition and the inner self are wasted. On the contrary, by connecting and weaving ourselves together, to be more whole, we are now more prepared for the vapors that pull up from the dark hole. By pulling ourselves out of the vacuum and cultivating our passions and intentions, we can now assess new situations with flexible, maneuvering hands.

With those tools, we can now communicate to ourselves or others how to approach our circumstances with both our head and our heart. Pragmatism and flexibility are key this week. It may be an endless list of tasks, or something larger or harder to conquer. Whatever that beast is, for this week we need to move and adapt.

It may seem like there is so much to get upset by. Strike that. There IS so much to get upset or enraged at. For this week focus on passions, causes, personal growth, anything that you hold tenderly in a well- lit window of your making. Take that small flame and find another. Give it life. Burn it hotter, bigger, and brighter. It does not have to be some large-scale global cause. It can be a small as choosing new words towards someone else. It could seem as insignificant as a meal, or anything that satisfies you. Find a new way to solve an old problem.

Evolution takes time. But what about the daily evolving we can blossom from a conversation, a song, a break from a buzzing society that never has its fill? I think the 6 of wands speaks to that evolution. For this week, we should try to twist ourselves out of the debris, public or personal. How can we each actively listen and pursue our way into a freer space.

This could include anything that helps you. I find my best tool is journaling. In my journals I can erase and redo myself over and over again. I can have conversations (both with real and fictitious figures) I would never have in my public life. I still say what I mean when I do finally have some of those conversations, but I can say it without pride, doubt, or illusions in my way.

Any way to move in sync with the waves that hold you is moving forward. If there is an obstacle, now is the moment to push through it. As I said before, the world did not stop for those of us who feel the vibrations and pings more deeply. That does not mean we can’t catch up and shake the cage to let the leopard of intent free.

 

**Thank you for reading. Please comment and let me know how the 6 of Wands manifests for you. If you would like a personal reading, please email me at teaandtombstones@gmail.com. Stay weird!

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Card of the week: The High Priestess

 

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“Tenderness and rot
share a border.
And rot is an
aggressive neighbor
whose iridescence
keeps creeping over.
No lessons
can be drawn
from this however.
One is not
two countries.
One is not meat
corrupting.
It is important
to stay sweet
and loving.” ~ Kay Ryan

 

The exotic nature, the mind- bending chaos that weaves our inner tapestry is directly linked to the High Priestess. She is the vibration when sitting still. She is part of what holds the dreams back when we wake up, and we desperately cling to any shred of memory. Her energy is a net thrown from our unconscious to save us from losing everything.

Last week the Star brought hope, light, and a direct path between our physical space and our supernova. For this week, travel down the mine. In our unconscious, we do not the rooms, or where the corners are. We fling our hands against everything, trying to find the light. Once we start to find our way around, this shines a flare on to our intuition.

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Our intuition is fueled with help from the previous week. We can only grow when we merge our knowledge of reality with the wisdom of our unique spirit. Ask yourself: when did I last make a significant decision? Why did I chose this moment instead of previous ones? How can i infiltrate more of my awareness towards others? These are the questions that The High Priestess asks of us. Her energy is serene, yet puzzling.

Most of these questions don’t have easy answers. In a way it is almost cruel that we have the understanding that there is more, but the steps to get there can be severe. This energy challenges us to conquer the conflicting and the competitive. This is not to say that we should lay waste to that side of us that makes us human. That would not only be foolish, but almost impossible.

Those that say that harmony and bliss are all that means to be spiritual are either lying or cowards. Sometimes we have to be raw flesh and bones, subject to mistakes and treacherous unseen oceans. The High Priestess is not one to tell us to never converse with our shadows. She is asking us how can our shadows make us more in tune with ourselves? I personally love the High Priestess, but I struggle with her too. I would love to find a way to constantly have my mysterious energy at FULL, but I cannot always harness that.

That is what makes her energy so forgiving. We can still be a metaphorical cup that spills over when we try to cross our rooms. All we need to know is what we consist of. I mentioned last week that the Star calls on us to drink from our own well. Whatever is is in your well, cup, or vessel, let it always wet your mouth, drop by precious drop.

**Thank you so much for reading. Please let me know how the High Priestess has manifested for you. If you would like a personal reading, please email me at teaandtombstones@gmail.com. Drink some tea. Share a ghost story. Stay weird!

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Card of the Week: Reversed Ace of Swords

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“The abyss doesn’t divide us. / The abyss surrounds us.” ~ Wislawa Szymborska

 

Last week there was ambiguity, doubt, and a simplistic singularity in our focus.  This energy was reserved and drawn inward.  Now the energy moves, perhaps violently, towards complications. Those doubts and insecurities are met with confusion, aggression, and even more uncertainty. The reversed Ace of Swords speaks to our unchecked momentum caused by defense mechanisms, and attempts to try and right the wrongs.

Deeper concerns, or unhealed pains, can fester like a splinter begging to rise above the skin.  If we do not carefully pluck those thoughts that can infect us, there will be a larger wound to clean. In the immediate, this is the card that forces us to at least check in with ourselves. If we keep moving, but haven’t realized that all we are making is right turns, now we have to back track.

Instead of retracing the steps that have already been made, it is more effective to re-draw our lines mentally. This is not easy. Right now, there is so much going on personally and publicly that it can be easy to put ourselves in auto-pilot. But our brains are still taking in and distributing out our reactions and intentions. If these are not understood, there can be unreasonable expectations and anger towards our surroundings and others.

The reversed Ace of Swords speaks to our shadow selves. The dense underbelly of our existence is where the havoc of our own individual conditions dwell. The memories we try to forget, the outlines of the demons that shift, and the cavernous voice of our ego are all in this space. We cannot run from ourselves. An ego cannot be checked with more pride.

This in the internal landfill, and more trash thrown away will not clear our minds because there is no away. It goes somewhere. If that space is back into the subconscious, or outwards towards others, it can still take shape and weaken our stance. For this week fight dominance and excess with innovative energy. Take the sheet of your own darkness and face it against the draft.

 

**Thank you so much for reading. I would love to hear how you deal with the reversed Ace of Swords, or any other questions or comments. If you would like a tarot reading, please email ashliefae26@comcast.net. Stay weird!**

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Card of the week: Daughter of Swords

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“I want a net made of iron to hold /  what I am. I love artifice.” ~ Linda Gregg Aphrodite and the Nature of Art

She is an overwhelming breath of opposites. The daughter of swords is agile, but insecure, strong but small, confident but inexperienced, and wise but young. She is wide open to the world, but that also makes her vulnerable. The energy for this week is similar to the reversed son of swords. It is quick to move, but slow to process. However, there is less aggression, or force with this card.

The reversed son of swords allowed all of us, man or woman, to tap into deeper masculine energy. The daughter, or known as the page in many decks, represents a call to the feminine or androgynous. Despite the potential recklessness of this card, there is still something wonderfully organic about it. This is energy that can, if channeled properly, help us go into our intuition, or our natural impulses.

For this week, the focus should be on finding balance between the naïve and learned practices of thought. In a sense, this is balancing who we are with who we maybe were at some point. When I was younger (especially in high school) my mind was everywhere, but my thoughts were strong. Stronger in some areas than I am today. I said what I thought, and never worried about consequences. I was mentally free to think anything at any time.

I still have those same freedoms; I am capable of thinking and maneuvering myself in any situation, but now I restrain myself much more. I have learned over the years that thoughts and practicalities are not the same thing. I am more mindful of my words to others, but the words I say to myself can be stifling. I talk myself out of many things because my priorities are no longer the same.

This is the balance to reach for. How can we be mentally free, but able to live within the diameter of reality. Saying whatever is on our minds is not always helpful, but how do we co-exist and communicate purely if we do not beseech our thoughts into actions. This is not easy. It never was. But finding balance here is honoring our true intentions with our words.

For this week see what thoughts stick with you. Not every thought needs or deserves an action, but our bodies have a way of subliminally telling us over and over again the things that we NEED to pay attention to. A dream journal is a helpful guide, or having a junk journal. This is a journal just for random thoughts throughout the day. In my journal, some of these thoughts have been treasures, and others were fleeting.

To me, the daughter of swords represents opening the raw viscos of thought. For this week, see what is there and if harmony can be had. These thoughts will grow and mature, and or will hold nothing and shed into dust. Listen and learn what these thoughts are, or what they could become. Be practical, but above all let your brain do its magic.

Some further tips:

Scents: Sage or Lemongrass

Stones: Labradorite

Spirit animals: Owl or Hawk

 

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Card of the week: Reversed Son of Swords

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Powered by intellect, but cloaked in turbulence, this week the energy is going to hit hard. This is the card that brings to surface the unbalanced, proud, and hasty aspects of our lives and of those around us. The Court cards many times can be representations of other people, and the type of relationships we have with them. For this week, ask yourself if this card represents you or someone you know.

If this card represents you, take care to find balance. Call on your center, and determine what it is you need and want for the week. This is the time to practice patience. Hasty decisions are not the best way to bring about lasting and positive change. For this week do not put your ego, your health, your money, or your relationships in jeopardy.

All of these are connected, and if one is out of balance the others also start to droop. If these, and other, aspects of our lives co-exist peacefully, our center will always be blossoming. But arrogance and instability will kill our spirit slowly. Focus on practices that will bring a sense of calm. There is so much that we could fight, argue, and lash out at. But if we do not pick our battles, or if we always react first and think second, we will always lose.

If this card or energy could be someone you know, or just met, act with caution. I do not mean run away and never look back. I mean: assess the dialog, actions, and situations around people who may exhibit this behavior. Of course all of us can be the reversed son of swords at times, but the ones who embody this lifestyle day and night are difficult to have lasting relationships with.

This card is not negative down to the bones, but the energy is intense and unleashed. It is not easy to be mindful most of the time, but this week is a good place to start. Think before saying something that could be hurtful. Think before acting if this is where your energy belongs. Think before purchasing if this is something you really want. Be mindful of and for others. Use boundaries to stop others who want to cause trouble. Speak to your truth, even if others do not like it.

This is time to find power, but not volatility. Find peace, but do not be a sign post with your message. Above all, find balance. Find what resonates between struggle and aggression, and how it can be used to build you up. Find what drives you, but do not become a hustler for it.

 

Some further tips:

Scents: Chamomile, Neroli, Bergamot. **With these, find any way that works with you. Essential oils are the most versatile, but candles, incense, and perfumes can help set the tone.**

Stones: Aquamarine

Animal Spirits: The Bobcat. Known for it ability to remain unseen for a lifespan, the Bobcat is the face of patience. This giant feline is also extremely powerful, and strategic.

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