I move through phases of daily pulls, in and out, a recurring theme based on the card above. At times, I want nothing more than to wake up, grab my cup of coffee, give my kitties a boop on the snoot, and then sit down with the cards, let them open me to deeper messages, and the divine.
Other times, the mere thought of sitting down for a daily pull feels like pulling teeth. It feels like the energies are too big and vague for one mere day, and I want something more than a message. During these times, I spend my morning reading books (not a bad habit), or going straight into my work.
Moving into and out of these energies at times makes me feel like I need structure, like I am wafting the creative energy right out of my space, while trying to call it in at the same time. It made me feel like my tarot practice, something that I have spent years now building to reach others and be of service for others, is still sometimes shaky. When looking to others creations, especially on social media, it seems that everyone else has structure, organization, personal clarity with their work.
However, this is not the case. Let me set the scene…….
I have been working with a business coach, the lovely Kelly-Ann Maddox, and she has been helping me get clear about some of the concepts mentioned above, along with many others. One of the things that we discussed was getting me out from behind the screen, making a more intimate connection with my viewers and readers. This is a huge point of growth for me, really stepping me out of my comfort zone, but I was determined to try. If I looked like an idiot, at least I would be able to say that this format is not for me, and gain a valuable lesson along the way.
So, I started filming myself, and it took about 40 attempts for me to get it to a place I was happy putting out onto Instagram. 40 ATTEMPTS. 40! This sentence makes me laugh, but it is true. I kept stumbling over my words and I had to sit on my desk with my phone propped up against the window because that is where I get the best light. After I put it out on Instagram, I accepted the fact that it wasn’t perfect, and that I probably was super awkward.
I started to get a few comments and views, but it was later last night that I received a comment that really touched me, and it was from someone whose creations I really admire. She said that my post resonated with her. MINE! My awkward self actually had something to give to someone else, and while I was judging and assuming that my video would not be well received, it actually really helped someone else, which makes my heart fuzzy.
I started writing this blog about the Ocean, and then digressed to something that happened yesterday, so what is the point? This is the point: do not assume what you do not know. Unconsciously, my offerings are based in my truth. Consciously, I fear the formalities (looking like an idiot, not being clear in my message.) This is Ocean energy.
The Ocean card speaks to immeasurable depths, relating to the unconscious and the incomprehensible. The Ocean archetype is alive when larger energies are at play that create change. The Ocean is present when we accept that Ocean cannot be tamed or taught. In order to merge with the unconscious, all we can do is surrender to the process, surrender to the guiding, larger forces that are present.
I knew that I was being called to step out of my comfort zone. I knew that it was in my higher and better self to be vulnerable, to be willing to raw on social media, a place where everything is polished and poised. The Ocean in this situation is reminding me that there is so much more beneath the surface, My unconscious self was ready for this growth, but my conscious mind was afraid and nervous.
If you are feeling out of balance, nervous, anxious, lean into Ocean energy. Pulling this card after my experience yesterday, it reaffirms to me that there is so much more beneath the surface than what I know. There is so much to gain and enjoy from following the path of higher calling, but there is so much unknown that it can be daunting to even attempt such a task. Don’t try to master or manipulate Ocean energy. Instead, use Ocean energy to let you embrace change with each small step. Use Ocean energy to connect and create alignment between conscious and unconscious spaces. They are both a part of you. Use Ocean energy to witness this spectrum, and attempt new things to create that change. It may not be pretty, but it will be beautiful.